dark days of surviving a suicide

My beautiful, wonderful, healthy, happy, loved, intelegent step son killed himself this past Sept. by a gunshot to the head. He was 19. The days since then have been filled with nothing but agony. I find it hard to work, to sleep, to do anything I ever enjoyed. It’s hard to laugh anymore. I’ve got a 10 year boy that I’ve got to help get thru his hero’s suicide. If he would have known the horrible tragedy that his death would cause, he’s still be here. His girlfriend just wanted to move on and didn’t, the end. There is always someone out there to talk to, please don’t ever try suicide at least give someone a chance to help you. God Be with you all who feel there’s nothing left for you. You never know what tomorrow will bring.