Archive for July, 2008

Just completely sick

Friday, July 11th, 2008

I am completely sick of my life, sick of living. It’s a trial to endure and I can’t stand it. Here I sit, on yet another lonely night of many. I feel ridiculous and ashamed being in my 30′sand talking to a stuffed toy animal but he’s my only friend. Years ago I thought I [...]

I’m abused by my sister

Thursday, July 10th, 2008

Last night my 15 year old sister bit me on my leg for no reason,I was on the p.c ,Ihad my leg on the p.c chair so she found it anoying and bit me on my left leg.When my mum came in she yelled at us and she sent us to our room . And [...]

Insults

Thursday, July 10th, 2008

People think its funny that I have lesbian parents but its not ! Everyone is saying im not pritty enough to go to the prom next year and now I dont want to go . My best mate said I have to go but how can ? I dont want to face them being an [...]

Need a hug…

Thursday, July 10th, 2008

I always need a hug. And I always need it from the people who can’t give me those hugs… I’m a 14 years, 6 months, 1 week and 5 days old girl. I never loved my father. I mean I loved him, but only that “Unconditionable love” that you always feel for family members. When [...]

Retiring my number

Thursday, July 10th, 2008

I’ve cleaned my desk out at work. It is now blank and plain like everyone else’s. No more posters and pictures or family photos, all of which have served to irritate me and remind me of my failures. I’ve made sure there is enough money left back for my family. I have cancelled all next [...]

Should i or shouldnt i?

Tuesday, July 8th, 2008

…”I still lead that ‘perfect’ life. But i dont know how to get through the pain.”

What next?

Tuesday, July 8th, 2008

I am a 20 year old female that has wanted to die since before I can even remember. When I was thirteen I was the “wanna be” party animal that hung out with all the older kids that drank and did drugs. I only smoked pot once in a while and I drank a lot, [...]

The Void pt II

Monday, July 7th, 2008

well, i’ve made up my mind. this weekend will be my last unless i can find a reason to hold on. but i feel at peace now, that it is going to end. no more tears no more sorrow. the pain will be gone forever.. time to return to the dark.. it’s hard to love [...]

bad thoughts

Monday, July 7th, 2008

I am a Christian woman that committed adultery. I was divorced, but he was not. We broke up his marriage. We are now married, but I cannot live with the guilt. His ex, had been having an affair for five years prior to our adultery, but I still cannot live with the guilt. I have [...]

worthless

Monday, July 7th, 2008

I am 55 years old and a recovering drug addict. I had a great career which I totally screwed up because of my drug use. My family is wonderful, they have forgiven me and they support everything I do. My problem is, I feel I have nothing to give. I’m just here, still borrowing money [...]