My friend killed herself two weeks ago and this weekend I have to go and visit her brother, I want to because I love him very much but this is all too much for me and I feel like my boyfriend can not handle what I have to say, I feel guilty about so many [...]

Today, I was in a head on car accident. Two weeks ago I prayed to God that he would kill me some how so I didn’t have to do it myself. When I walked away from that accident today a large portion of who I am was angry I didn’t die. It would have been [...]

Today, I was in a head on car accident. Two weeks ago I prayed to God that he would kill me some how so I didn’t have to do it myself. When I walked away from that accident today a large portion of who I am was angry I didn’t die. It would have been [...]

My life is one big train wreck. What seems to be the biggest hurdle in my life is the after effects of my incest. The earliest memory of my father abusing me is around 3 or 4 years old. I am not really sure because I have blocked out most of my growing up years. [...]

Ok: For as long as I can remember… dating back to even kindegarten.. yep I remember feeling like this then.. I have been walking around with this feeling and allow me to tell you it is awful. One would think I should be used to this … stomach always in my throat… never feeling as [...]

I used to be depressed and suicidal. There were a number of reasons for this that I would rather not talk about, but not a day went by thta I did not think about death and killing myself. The day came when I started making lists of everything I had to be grateful for: lists [...]

Some people say war is Hell . Well not being good enough to go with your buddies is worse! The army made that choice for me . I wanted to go with my boys but the army said I cant . Shame is a terrible thing!!! But so is begging for help you cant get!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! [...]

When I was 6 I wanted to know what was dangerous about the high tension lines, my sisters simply said if you touch them you die, I asked for details, but instead of hearing about electrocution they just told me that when you die you go to sleep and never wake up and never see [...]

this life so far has been shit… well this year. im 18 years old and in my senoir year of high school i fell apart. in may of 2008 my father passed away. he wasnt just my dad he was my best friend. the one to run and talk to when i was fighting with [...]

Growing up…I was a depressed child. I was so different from my family. My family didn’t know what to do about me, but being the only girl, I was always treated like a ‘time bomb’ waiting to happen. I was always treated like I did something wrong. I was under strict rules, as opposed to [...]