Family – Grad School – Career – Children – Friends – Volunteering – Pets – Chores – Homework It is like being in a hamster wheel – exhausting – constant – never ending But, I am all smiles, say the right things, act the right way, look the right way – 4.0 , suck up [...]

There’s no point in living anymore if you’re just existing.

I’ve had a pretty rough year and to sum the whole thing up, I’ll start from November 2007. I had chronic Glandular Fever and was hospitalised for just under a month, along with chronic Tonsilitis. After recoving as best I could from the Glandular Fever (which still isn’t completely gone, I get sick and chronically [...]

My story is maybe one that someone could relate. At 13 I was fondled by an older man who lived down the street. This event never went more than that one time he did this to me. I coped, avoided, and made it past. When I was 16 my parents had me committed to a [...]

Its 4.20am and I’m sitting in front of my laptop begging to be able to sleep, as when I’m alone, its quite and there’s nothing to occupy my mind that’s when the feeling and thought’s that I’ve worked so hard all day to repress come flooding back in an unbearable wave. I’ve been like this [...]

i don’t know what i’m doing here. nothing traumatic has ever happened to me. no abuse, no drugs, no alcohol. and yet i have been having suicidal thoughts for nearly seven years now, i think. the earliest time i can remember being this way is sophomore year of high school, i was sitting in english [...]

Does suicide haunt some families? Like a theif in the night, stealing the sanity of it’s victims. In 1975 my grandfather died by suicide. No warning, no goodbyes. That very day I told him I was going to give him his first great grandchild. He told me he wanted a 9 lb baby with the [...]

I had the picture perfect family growing up. Or so my mother wanted everyone to believe. To keep up this image of perfection, all the ‘bad things’ had to be pushed under the carpet. She damaged me at a young age by doing just that at a time I needed her the most. Don’t get [...]

I’ve been hospitalized for suicide attempts before…I didn’t like it. I used to cut myself and didn’t care if anyone saw me do it or saw the outcome. I’ve begun to cut myself once again. I know I need help but the hard part is asking for it. I was molested by my father when [...]

Not Sure if this is the right sort of thing to be posted here, please take it down if it is wrong but here goes: Isolated and alone, cut off from the world around her, kept away from friends and family, locked in a life full of torture. Her life meant nothing to her; she [...]