the begining
January 31st, 2009 by quietlyobjectifiedthe first time i tried to kill myself i was 6. it was right after i’d told my dad that a family friend was molesting me. he beat the crap out of me and told me it was my fault, that i asked for it. i tried to strangle myself by tying a shoelace around my throat so tight that i couldn’t breathe. i fainted and the cord snapped.
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February 1st, 2009 at 6:27 am
I’m glad you survived.
February 2nd, 2009 at 8:04 pm
Jesus Christ.
No child should ever experience any pain. I am sorry you had to go through this.
Although now, you may feel weak and beaten down, you are actually very strong. It takes a fighter to get through such traumatic events.
February 2nd, 2009 at 8:12 pm
Hi there. My name is Marissa and I do not know you. But I wanted to reach my hand out to you. I love you. It’s not ok for that person to do that. I know you did not want it. I was molested by a family member. I told my parents and at first they said–”well that stuff happens” ??? Humans are weird and can be cruel. You are not that way. Do not ever try to numb yourself out. You will become an enlightened person. I actually liked the molestation at first because I thought that it meant love and attention. As the years past I felt dirty and ashamed. I hated myself . I am not saying that is how you felt, or feel. I just wanted to tell you about me. You are reaching out in a good way. Talking about this to people who understand is important in getting through this. There are really loving people who you will find to help you. All I can say is that I love you and you never deserved to be hurt.
February 26th, 2009 at 8:15 pm
People don’t understand things and they try and make themselves feel better by pushing the issue aside or not taking it seriously. It BLOWS.
Know that it’s them, not you:) That’s the past, look to your future!