I think I’ve reached the end of my chain. There’s nothing I can do right and I think it’s time to stop trying. I’ve screwed up so bad I just can’t keep thinking that I will make it out this time. School sucks I can’t make friends and no one cares. The teachers make me [...]

That’s it. I just can’t take it anymore. Everyone hates me. There’s not a goddamn thing wrong with me. I’m skinny, I’m somewhat good looking, people laugh at my jokes (yes it [i]IS[/i] at my jokes) and still I’m always the one taking all the shit. I feel like one day I’m going to explode. [...]

Why is it that whenever someone calls me stupid or emo I try to cry but I just can’t, but when someone calls me cool or fun I start crying? I just can’t figure it out. I’m pretty sure they’re not happy tears or I would feel… I don’t know, happy? I don’t know quite [...]

I’m sick and tired of who I am and who everyone else thinks I am. No one seems to care what happens to me anymore, and I’m starting to wonder why I should either. It’s just so hard to get up and out of bed each day, but it’s never worth the extra effort I [...]

I have changed. I am Marcus and I know I need to change but I can’t cus my friends are not understanding and i live two lives where i apere to be a happy outgoing teen at school but when i am by myself all i can think abut is how much i whant to [...]

i want to get better… and yet I don’t.
I don’t know why whenever it comes to mind that I could get better, I shy away from it. It’s like I still want to think these stupid thoughts, and I still want to feel all the pain and regret.
I have not been diagnosed, but I am [...]

I have decided that death is certainly not the worst thing in life. The worst thing is living in a mind that decieves you, makes you overanalyze everything and hate yourself so much it physically hurts. Everything is a ocnstant waterfall of hatred and neglect, even though in the eyes of a “normal” person they [...]

“There are worst things you can do to the people you love than kill them. No matter how much you think you love somebody, you’ll step back when the pool of their blood edges up too close.”
I’ve decided that dying is not the worst thing that can happen to you. Living…living everyday…with the knowledge, and [...]

okhay well this is my side of the story.
why would yu want to die for somethinq so stupid and someone who doesn’t even care
for you. face life, and think as everthinq in a positive way nothinq bad will happen.
ask your self if you really would sacrifice dyinq for someone else. and ask your self [...]

What the fuck.? I’m so frustrated. i’m so weak and ugly and stupid and…FUCK i can’t stand myself. I hate being trapped in my head. I have a shrink but she doesn’t get it. I haven’t told any of my friends about my… thoughts or whatever. they don’t know me at all. i hate being [...]