I have never been good at these things so I will just type what I feel. Alot of people will sit there and say that they want to die, and they are unhappy and they want it to end…I want to die because I hate myself completely, I dispise the fact I am breathing right [...]

Tuesday November 17, 2008 I get home from school, the second I get there all I wanna do is dissapear. I waited until my mom left for work, to have to house to myself. Once she was gone I lock all the doors leading outside so no one can get in. I go to the [...]

i cant even count the number of times ive tidied up my room and prepared to hang myself from the fan. everytime i sware that this is it.. ive gotten as far as just having to kick the stool away from me.. but i just cant do it.. i want to so badly.. i want [...]

I can understand the overthinking. I do not know which is worse, the depression or the mania. If I could harvest just a bit of mania to use “in case of emergency”, that would be great. I am so depressed at times I cannot leave my room. I have rationalized higher power away through my [...]

FIRST OF ALL: IMA LESBIAN. I WAS ADOPTED BEFORE MY BIRTH MOTHER GAVE BIRTH. I WAS BORN IN MEXICO & BROUGHT HERE. WHEN I REACHED MIDDLE SCHOOL MY PARENTS STARTED ABUSING ME [MORE VERBALLY & EMOTIONALLY THEN ANYTHING] & IVE BEEN STRUGGLIN WIT THE FACT THAT I WAS ‘ABANDONED’. I JUS CANT DEAL WIT ME [...]

ok, I am sick of hearing life is what you make it. Then how come whwenever I try and make it better, it just gets worse? I feel like everyday I am losing even more of my life. It’s like it’s slipping away right in front of my eyes. I dont have the strength inside [...]

You think you’ve had just about finished feeling pain. Then someone just puts you in just twice as much pain you just got out of. I was hurting and thought I was going to be okay for I couple of days then someone in my family just stabs me in the back and I’m in [...]

i have been feeling like i am barely keeping my head above water. i move through every day trying to convince myself i matter and that my life is worth while. it is so hard for me to get out of bed most days, and i often spend days there, i am soo tired of [...]

i dont know where to start… i have been dealing with depression, stress, anxiety and occasional suicidal thoughts now for years. i never (until recently) talked to anyone about my problems, which i believe was a huge mistake. i feel that this problem i have within myself is hurting not only myself, but those around [...]

Sadness is one of the many things that is written about here, but should this cause (unintentional) physical pain? Sometimes when I do have a good moment and notice all things good, I get this heavy feeling in my chest and it sort of hurts. Its like a small bruise and it makes me feel [...]