hey all suicidal angels.. im calista.. well, im suicidal..it’s been awhile..ive tried it so many times but here I am, typing this up. How I wish im dead by now..i just dont wanna live but in some point,i feel i dont wanna commit suicide and pray to God that someone might stab me up or [...]

I am this gutless arsehole kind of a person. I knew I would never have the guts to commit suicide. I am forced to study just to migrate to another country. I feel this is so unlike myself. I am finding this as a mental torture. I feel like I ve chosen the wrong course [...]

I’ve read a couple of posts and I think its great that people have a chance to express themselves and get others to help. I’ve tried to fill myself 4 or 5 times now and I havent been able to do it. I know that most people have issues and that they find it difficult [...]

Does anyone care to talk with a person who is wiser , but not happier at 56.

Just this year on Jan 28 09 my mom passed away.
At first I couldnt beleive it. I was with her in the hospital and she was fine.
I go sit with my grandma and then next thing I hear is CODE BLUE!!
I didnt know what that meant but they sent the nurses to my mom room.
Minutes [...]

so it 12:00 in the morning and I can’t sleep, why I have’nt been able to sleep for ages.
as I was was lying awake in my bed I thought about my life and why its worth living, I thought should I just go into my kitchen and take all the pills, or go to my [...]

Its geting harder and harder as the days of my life with in the darkness go on i see no way out now and think its best if i just slip away to the train line .I have tryed so many times before to end my life and each one i have failed at but [...]

All this is well and good for somebody to find somebody to talk to — who cares — but what if you’ve got nobody who does.  I held off from taking my life, as long as my mother was alive, and now she’s been gone for over two years.  I have no other family — [...]

I don’t want to kill myself. But I don’t want to be alive. I just want something to happen. Anything. I could freeze to death. Just walk outside and wait. Here in Alaska it would be a matter of minutes. But I don’t want to kill myself. I want it to be by a freak [...]

…but man, does the thought seem appealing at times.  It’s been cathartic to read through some of these posts.  They really do let me know that I’m not completely alone in this, and I want to thank the creators of this site right now.  It’s interesting to see the range of people and problems that [...]