I’m a 17 (almost 18) year old girl and this is my brain’s rant session. I’m extremely distant from reality pretty much all day, my life seems so pointless and corrupted that I create these fantasies about people, usually guys, I wish I could affect, but actually am just obsolete to. After seeing the film [...]

I am depressed. I am an insomniac. I have an obsessive compulsive nature. I am paranoid. I can’t cope. It’s been said that admitting your faults, admitting your issues, is one step on the way to recovery. But when your 2 million steps below the surface, one step doesn’t make that much difference. I can [...]

Take a look around This is our reality This is the way we all are bound It’s the concept of conformity Not allowed to be who we are The worst of our beliefs by far Taking away our individuality Who are you to change her Change what the world will see Who are you to tell [...]

Don’t bother trying to save me Just let me be I don’t need you anymore So please shut the door And walk away I’ll see you again someday I know it’s dumb But I wanna be numb I’m tired of hurting for you So sick of trying, too I’m sick of trying to hold on When all hope [...]

Slowly one by one All these thoughts they come Escape is an obsession All products depression The world’s frozen still Broken glass on the window sill Let go of all you knew They’ll all forget about you Can’t hold it together any longer Thought you were stronger

1. If you go to a therapist, which I very, very highly recommend, be aware that you might have to go to several before you get one you feel can really help. Reserve the energy for that and know that there is a caring, competent one out there for you, despite the ones you may [...]

I have been reading some of the stories which describe such deep pain that I wish I didn’t feel.  I am tired of feeling.  I am tired of being an outcast and a victim.  My mother and my father sexually abused me as a child.  However, they always appeared as the “good” churchgoing couple for the [...]

I can’t believe it, or is it surprising to know that I’m one if not only  Black/African American women that wants end her life.  I searched every post for the words  black and african and no one has declared to represent themselves as such. If there is any poc out there.. How do you get [...]

I have had an undiagnosed illness for 7 months now.  My symptoms are too overwhelming to indicate here however it is of a medical nature not psychological. This illness has left me mostly bedridden, unable to leave the house except for dr’s appointments and unable to drive and struggling to walk.  I’m in my mid 30′s [...]

i’m seventeen, my mom and dad are the only reason i wouldnt want to die, i would like them to understand i need to die, cos i’m no good, i dnt get good grades, i’m not nice to most people, i mean i dont know how to fake smiles, i cant make many friends and [...]