Comments on: Help for a plan to kill myself?

By: TJ

TJ — Thu, 03 Sep 2009 20:40:51 +0000

http://suicideproject.org/archives/2009/09/03/someone-help-me-2/

There ya go. My thread if you want to follow it..

By: TJ

TJ — Thu, 03 Sep 2009 15:18:47 +0000

Yeah, I’ll make own thread and write it there.. I was just really really desperate that night and had to tell someone and that was all I could find.. I’ll brb with my own thread though

By: Fubar

Fubar — Thu, 03 Sep 2009 13:35:28 +0000

Hey TJ, ur mom is such a damned bitch. I don’t get it, do u all really need her that badly to be around when all she does is hurt all of u?
And another thing I don’t get is; the whole family can just gang up on her like? Why is everybody getting pushed around by her?
Btw, sounds more like she came back to EXPLOIT all of u, and not because she felt bad.
I don’t know, could u like make ur own thread for ur story? I feel bad kinda bad hijacking someone else’s.

By: Mike

Mike — Thu, 03 Sep 2009 06:59:51 +0000

Hi TJ
Just don’t give up. There are plenty of chances left in life if you are just 20.
You can start over at any time.

Trust your boyfriend and believe him when he says he loves you, hold on to that feeling and keep hoping and believing.

We are all here for you if you need us.

By: TJ

TJ — Wed, 02 Sep 2009 22:36:32 +0000

Is there a .. you know, chat I can talk to someone maybe? Although writing it all here and knowing someone actually reads it is sort of comforting in a way. I just have a lot of things to say I guess…

By: TJ

TJ — Wed, 02 Sep 2009 20:42:45 +0000

Yeah .. I don’t know. Maybe it is all my fault somehow. Bad karma maybe? Or maybe some people are just meant to be depressed, some people aren’t meant to be happy. Seems like I’m losing everyone I care about. My mom just came into my room screaming saying I needed to pack my bags and get the hell out of her house and that I’m not welcome here anymore .. and my stepdad told me to lock my door and stay in there till she is calm. I’m so desperate for someone to see my cries for help. If I get kicked out I’ll have nowhere to go and I don’t have any cash. I tried talking to my bestfriend, but she’s busy with her boyfriend and I told her what’s going on and all she said was “seriously?” and then she said she had to go and I haven’t heard from her since. I guess the only person you can trust nowadays is yourself .. but what happens when you can’t trust yourself because your head is telling you to end your life and your heart still wants to hold on because there might be some hope?
I’m so freaking torn.. I know I’m 20 and should be acting like a grown up, but I feel like a terrified little kid. why can’t anyone see me..

By: Sai Chan

Sai Chan — Wed, 02 Sep 2009 20:15:31 +0000

TJ,
I tried various brands of flour, especially the flour for pancakes, just awful, the taste is just like chemicals,
I spit it out even the first mouthful. Now I can even tell just by smelling the raw flour to see if there are chemicals.
I just don’t understand how on earth these famous brands can be so morally downgraded.
I’m now using one that is good, “White Wings”–plain flour, no addictives, unbleached, made in Australia.

About your staying or leaving, It’s your decision. The worries at home has to be solved. And your emotional pressure has to be released before going abroad. Even a short leave may bring you temporary relief and happiness, but beware the blow of news that may strike you. If your personal problem is not solved, in the long run, may bring sadness to your relationship with your boyfriend. And If your boyfriend doesn’t understand without the company of you and find another girl, it’ll be only your gain and blessing, not your loss.
Also learn the basic cooking skills, for your father, and your boyfriend, actually for your own good. Then teach it to your dad and your siblings, then you can go anywhere free without your mother.
(If your cooking skills are bad, I can teach you the basics in 1 paragragh or 2)

About the raping and abortion, of course you have personal responsibility, should have protected yourself, but your parents
did the great part without teaching or provided a safer environment for you.

By: stopsfungus

stopsfungus — Wed, 02 Sep 2009 20:08:23 +0000

alt.suicide.methods <– lots of good info there.

By: Sai Chan

Sai Chan — Wed, 02 Sep 2009 18:44:52 +0000

TJ,
In life, we have to avoid any unnecessary battles, walk away, and ignore it. The road is broad for also the evils.
We are always aroused to fight because the evils prey on the kind-hearted. But as a human being, we need the always joy in
thinking that can bring us peace and happiness.
However, when we are pushed to the edge, a threat to our survival, the abolishment of our soul, the worthiness of our true-self,
we roar, we awake any possible positive force that we have, to fight. That’s the battle we have to face.
When you fight, you carry the right. Not only you defend for yourself, also for your stepdad.
Only you have the right thinking, could you have the positive force to lift your stepdad up.
Your mother gone will bring nothing to your stepdad, but your love is so immense that your stepdad may depend on and need
no more from your mother.
Think of your stepdad, a positive force that stand beside you, not 2 poor souls of negativity sobbing together.
Tell your stepdad that you love him.
Howl to the evil. You have the right of where you are standing. There you in command of your loving soul.
When the evil can’t stand your existence in between, you in turn evict the evil with the facts of its evil deeds.

By: Sai Chan

Sai Chan — Wed, 02 Sep 2009 16:18:54 +0000

TJ,
I just read your story. Never think too long your story is.
And I need time to think and feel like you.
But at this moment I’m very glad to learn your fight from the bottom up,
that’s what you should do.
To break out from the ultimate, shout it out. You definitely have the right
to do what you think right. Don’t ever let the evil wins.
I know you are good. I’m beside you.