Comments on: how it all happened

By: someone who cares

someone who cares — Wed, 24 Jun 2009 21:29:26 +0000

it will get better, and with patience you can wait until he puts his life in order. take this time for self improvement, try to better yourself and the pain will fade eventually.

By: the author

the author — Wed, 24 Jun 2009 19:29:52 +0000

Thanks to both of you for your thoughts, they do mean a lot. I just wanted to say that my boyfriend broke up with me this morning over a text message and then turned off his phone. He said that he loved me, but he’s not ready to be loved…and that he’s sorry. Sorry doesn’t begin to cover what I feel right now. I’m in love with him. But I think I’m going to be okay. I wish I could talk to him, see him again…and I know I will, but I don’t know when. In some small way all this pain and hurt and emptiness that I’m feeling is making me feel more alive than I have felt in a long time. I still wish it would stop.

By: someone who cares

someone who cares — Wed, 24 Jun 2009 06:07:04 +0000

this may sound stupid but your story sounds exactly like a friend of mine. shes not quite there yet, actually shes 14 but her story so far sounds exactly like yours… except shes already had about 5 friends kill themselves. your boyfriend doesnt sound all that supportive to me, although i can relate somewhat as i have the same issue of fighting with my girlfriend. i think it might be worth your time to have him sit down and take a shot at explaining this all to him, try to get him to see it from your point of view. a piece of advice for that, dont get confrontational. if it becomes an argument it might defeat the purpose. things will get better, whether you believe it or not. something that has helped me stay in the game, “It will all be ok in the end. If it’s not all ok, its not the end”. if you can force yourself to truly believe that, then you will be ok, and get better.

By: D

Tue, 23 Jun 2009 10:24:46 +0000

Hugs. First off, prozac is an awful way to go. I tried with several different meds for most of my teenage years, including speed. They don’t work and just make you feel like crap. I also slit my wrists, or rather my whole arm. That doesn’t work either and leaves awful scars which will ruin future employment oppurtunities. Next time try to hold off for just 24 hours. It sounds nuts, but after like 5 hours or so…I don’t want to anymore. I just cry and cry. I feel like such a loser cause I can’t even kill myself correctly, but no body really has to know this right? Better to be a loser than dead I guess.