I know these things are not so easy, you married this person thinking for better or worse. It’s not easy to give up the dream. And you may still be hoping he’ll change, that things will get better. It hurts, its painful to be treated this way by someone you love, who’s supposed to care about you.

But if you’re thinking of killing yourself, it’s because the pain of how he’s treating you is getting to be too much. It’s nothing wrong with you – he’s being a jerk. I’m sorry to say that, I realize you may still love him in spite of everything, and you probably really want it to work out.

What he’s doing is a power trip, seeing how much he can get away with. Like a little boy – this is not the behavior of a grown adult. You have to stand up to him, you have to say, I’m not taking this any more, I’m out of here. And make sure you really mean it, and don’t let him sweet-talk you back.

Please ask somebody to help you break free from your husband – a friend, a family member, maybe a counselor at a women’s shelter, a therapist, anybody. Please tell them your story and say that you want to break out of this destructive relationship that has you feeling so bad about yourself.

I truly believe that if you can use the ‘fight’ you have left in you to _walk away_ from this man, to say, “No, I will not take this behavior from you any more,” it will give you a sense of strength that you really need.

And again I know it may be the hardest thing you’ve ever done in your life. Only you know what you’re facing. But it’s ok to do it – it does not make you a bad person. It will give you back your sense of self-respect, the self-respect that your husband is trying to destroy.