Comments on: Numerous Attempts http://suicideproject.org/2009/08/numerous-attempts/ share your suicide story with others Thu, 24 May 2012 06:54:32 +0000 hourly 1 By: ApocalypsePony http://suicideproject.org/2009/08/numerous-attempts/comment-page-1/#comment-37181 ApocalypsePony Sun, 15 Nov 2009 16:27:58 +0000 http://suicideproject.org/?p=3580#comment-37181 Numerous I really identify with your experiences. Please stay strong and believe that you are on this earth for a reason. You are special and loved. If you ever just want to talk or need to vent, I am always available. My email Bekki70@aol.com and if you send me a message I will gladly give you my phone number so we can talk. A compassionate and friendly voice is always a big comfort. Please don't lose hope and reach out for help when the burdens become too much to bear. Bless you, Bekki Numerous I really identify with your experiences. Please stay strong and believe that you are on this earth for a reason. You are special and loved. If you ever just want to talk or need to vent, I am always available. My email Bekki70@aol.com and if you send me a message I will gladly give you my phone number so we can talk. A compassionate and friendly voice is always a big comfort.

Please don’t lose hope and reach out for help when the burdens become too much to bear.

Bless you,

Bekki

]]> By: i.survived.91 http://suicideproject.org/2009/08/numerous-attempts/comment-page-1/#comment-36665 i.survived.91 Fri, 16 Oct 2009 05:08:49 +0000 http://suicideproject.org/?p=3580#comment-36665 It’s not worth it. Trust me. Nothing bad can ever happen in life that’s worth killing yourself. I fell into depression last year. I thought things would never change. Everything became as worse as it could have. I tried to kill myself. I was alone in the dorm room and overdosed on more than a hundred pills. I was knocked out in minutes. Next thing I know was that I woke up in the psychiatric ward 2 days later. Apparently, somehow someone on my floor found me lying outside my door. I have no idea how I got outside. Only God knows. He does exist. This is just His test on our lives. I thought things would never improve. I was in the psych unit for a week. When I left, I still felt depressed and suicidal for months. I would cry every night in the bathroom holding a knife in my hand. But I clung on. I held on for my life. I gave it a chance. Today, I’m steadily improving mentally. My suicidal thoughts are gone. I’m still a little depressed at times. But it’s only been 6 months. It takes time. Trust me. You’re going to be perfectly fine soon enough. You just have to stay strong. I’m only 18 years old and that one night was the worst decision of my life. The pain I inflicted on my family is unbearable. People do care about you. It’s just that there’s chemicals due to meds and just so much shit going on in our brains that we can’t control. If you and I can get through this part of our lives, we can get through anything. Email me if you would like to talk to me at i.survived.91@gmail.com. Stay strong. Never give up. I don’t even know you and I care about you just because I was like you at one point and after months I understand that nothing in my life is worth it to give away my life. Please believe in my words. I can help you overcome this. Please email me! It’s not worth it. Trust me. Nothing bad can ever happen in life that’s worth killing yourself. I fell into depression last year. I thought things would never change. Everything became as worse as it could have. I tried to kill myself. I was alone in the dorm room and overdosed on more than a hundred pills. I was knocked out in minutes. Next thing I know was that I woke up in the psychiatric ward 2 days later. Apparently, somehow someone on my floor found me lying outside my door. I have no idea how I got outside. Only God knows. He does exist. This is just His test on our lives. I thought things would never improve. I was in the psych unit for a week. When I left, I still felt depressed and suicidal for months. I would cry every night in the bathroom holding a knife in my hand. But I clung on. I held on for my life. I gave it a chance. Today, I’m steadily improving mentally. My suicidal thoughts are gone. I’m still a little depressed at times. But it’s only been 6 months. It takes time. Trust me. You’re going to be perfectly fine soon enough. You just have to stay strong. I’m only 18 years old and that one night was the worst decision of my life. The pain I inflicted on my family is unbearable. People do care about you. It’s just that there’s chemicals due to meds and just so much shit going on in our brains that we can’t control. If you and I can get through this part of our lives, we can get through anything. Email me if you would like to talk to me at i.survived.91@gmail.com. Stay strong. Never give up. I don’t even know you and I care about you just because I was like you at one point and after months I understand that nothing in my life is worth it to give away my life. Please believe in my words. I can help you overcome this. Please email me!

]]> By: db3464 http://suicideproject.org/2009/08/numerous-attempts/comment-page-1/#comment-36121 db3464 Thu, 03 Sep 2009 14:36:40 +0000 http://suicideproject.org/?p=3580#comment-36121 Yura I am sorry that you can relate as this thing called depression is the worst thing I can imagine. I like your movie idea. Your calm before the storm reminds me of how I sometimes feel better in the storm than in the calm. The calm gives me this sick feeling of impending doom. Lately I am in the storm. I sit at work fighting tears and no one knows how hard it is to keep a job when you have no desire to get out of bed each day. I wish I could say I see some light at the end of all of this, but I simply don't. For me, I am not a religious person so I feel like this is all for naught. Yura I am sorry that you can relate as this thing called depression is the worst thing I can imagine. I like your movie idea. Your calm before the storm reminds me of how I sometimes feel better in the storm than in the calm. The calm gives me this sick feeling of impending doom. Lately I am in the storm. I sit at work fighting tears and no one knows how hard it is to keep a job when you have no desire to get out of bed each day. I wish I could say I see some light at the end of all of this, but I simply don’t. For me, I am not a religious person so I feel like this is all for naught.

]]> By: Yura http://suicideproject.org/2009/08/numerous-attempts/comment-page-1/#comment-36075 Yura Wed, 02 Sep 2009 12:37:24 +0000 http://suicideproject.org/?p=3580#comment-36075 I can relate to your comment db3464, the thought that I could just die any moment does give me some sort of relief at times. Sometimes, just the thought isn't really enough though. Right now, I'm trying to do disassociation, looking at myself as if it's not really me living this life, like I'm a character in a movie and I'm here because I'm supposed to be here, I don't want to be where I am, but I/someone need me to be here. It has consoled me for the last couple of days, hopefully 'the calm before the storm' is longer this time. At least, I don't have to think about myself anymore, I just watch the movie. I can relate to your comment db3464, the thought that I could just die any moment does give me some sort of relief at times. Sometimes, just the thought isn’t really enough though. Right now, I’m trying to do disassociation, looking at myself as if it’s not really me living this life, like I’m a character in a movie and I’m here because I’m supposed to be here, I don’t want to be where I am, but I/someone need me to be here. It has consoled me for the last couple of days, hopefully ‘the calm before the storm’ is longer this time. At least, I don’t have to think about myself anymore, I just watch the movie.

]]> By: db3464 http://suicideproject.org/2009/08/numerous-attempts/comment-page-1/#comment-36050 db3464 Tue, 01 Sep 2009 21:24:03 +0000 http://suicideproject.org/?p=3580#comment-36050 I totally understand your pain. Although I haven't tried pills, I have also put myself in situations that should have killed me. They didn't. I have long looked for some quick and painless method of suicide. I do google searches. I think I want to know what I can do...but like you I will never do it as my family has been through suicide and I couldn't knowingly cause them that kind of pain again (as bitter as I am that I have to stay alive for THEM). I want to have the option handly because somehow this helps me get through the day/minute/second. As I type I want to go home and off myself. I have lived with depression for 20+ years and have tried meds, therapists, etc. I am sooooo tired of people saying talk to someone or try this. I have tried it all and live in daiy misery. I totally understand your pain. Although I haven’t tried pills, I have also put myself in situations that should have killed me. They didn’t. I have long looked for some quick and painless method of suicide. I do google searches. I think I want to know what I can do…but like you I will never do it as my family has been through suicide and I couldn’t knowingly cause them that kind of pain again (as bitter as I am that I have to stay alive for THEM). I want to have the option handly because somehow this helps me get through the day/minute/second. As I type I want to go home and off myself. I have lived with depression for 20+ years and have tried meds, therapists, etc. I am sooooo tired of people saying talk to someone or try this. I have tried it all and live in daiy misery.

]]> By: aurevoir78 http://suicideproject.org/2009/08/numerous-attempts/comment-page-1/#comment-36013 aurevoir78 Tue, 01 Sep 2009 13:15:56 +0000 http://suicideproject.org/?p=3580#comment-36013 Why have you never tried Vicodin? opiates would do the trick as in heath ledger , MJ, and anna nicole smith etc "accidental" deaths. They are very powerful. You could try buying heroin and overdosing. i know this may seem terrible to encourage or give ideas to someone but I truly believe in empowering people who have the right to die painlessly and peacefully. This is how I want to go. I am having allot of trouble sourcing these things but its a plan. Even if I have to travel overseas to get them. Why have you never tried Vicodin? opiates would do the trick as in heath ledger , MJ, and anna nicole smith etc “accidental” deaths. They are very powerful. You could try buying heroin and overdosing. i know this may seem terrible to encourage or give ideas to someone but I truly believe in empowering people who have the right to die painlessly and peacefully. This is how I want to go. I am having allot of trouble sourcing these things but its a plan. Even if I have to travel overseas to get them.

]]> By: Calie http://suicideproject.org/2009/08/numerous-attempts/comment-page-1/#comment-35995 Calie Mon, 31 Aug 2009 22:25:42 +0000 http://suicideproject.org/?p=3580#comment-35995 omg, im so sorry who ever you may be. dont take any more pills please. i dont even know you and i dont want you to. it hurts when you have no one here to help you. im not going to say much because i dont want to be a played out record. but you need to talk to someone, someone you can trust, someone who really cares. talk about your problems and if you think your going to pop pills again, pick up that phone and call that person instead and talk to them about why you want to do it and maybe it will help. omg, im so sorry who ever you may be. dont take any more pills please. i dont even know you and i dont want you to. it hurts when you have no one here to help you. im not going to say much because i dont want to be a played out record. but you need to talk to someone, someone you can trust, someone who really cares. talk about your problems and if you think your going to pop pills again, pick up that phone and call that person instead and talk to them about why you want to do it and maybe it will help.

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