As i siad yesterday I keep feeling my time is near, I was right.  It is.  See ya on the flipside.

On August 16, 2009, I recieved a phone call early in the morning that my brother shot himself. I jumped out of the bed and went over his house. The scenero is a terrible feeling that i wish no one will have to experience. I even had to identify his body. Since he passed away [...]

hey everyone. i don’t have too much to say but i’ll start off by mentioning that this post isn’t at all for myself. there are a lot of people who come to this site and write down their experiences/situations for others to read, but many of us here don’t really receive help. the only way [...]

How is it that I have parents and siblings who love me friends who care for me and good grades nothing bad yet I still want to die and I compare my life to others who have the complete opposite of mine and they want to live but they have such slim chances of that. [...]

I think I’ve figured it out. Well, sort of. What I mean is how I can go through life with this constant desire to die, but never the will to. It’s not that I want to be dead, it’s that I want life to go away. I want to live a life that is as [...]

Not really good at this,  never posted anything on the internet before.   Hmmmm, I am not a teenager,  desperately poor,  medically uncomfortable or in any way outside of normal.   I have a career, a beutiful daughter and a wife that wants to be with me.  There has always been something there, and i cant explain [...]

A friend of mine told me I’m ok with all this sufferin’, as if I really mean to be like this to punish somebody or to, even worst, punish myself. Maybe once I refused to give my parents the awful pain caused by my death, but now there’s nothing… really nothing that wants me to [...]

The only reason that I’m still alive and able to write this is because I’m not ready to inflict such upset and pain on my loved ones. Over the years I have seen too many relatives and close friends suffer lengthy, painful and undignified deaths. Following the death of my mother several years ago I [...]

The 1st time I contemplated suicide was when I was 9yo ( sitting in a room with at least half a dozen rifles within reach), I am now 34. I don’t really want to die, & I figure that, deep down 99% of the rest of you don’t either. We just want life to be [...]

It’s hard talking to people about my feelings, people I know, and I act happy and nice in front of everyone when really I’m not. I’m fat, mean, gross, rude, repulsive, disgusting,  greasy, and people hate me because of this. My body looks gross and disgusting it makes me want to puke everytime I see it [...]