heey ,
i feeel empty, like theres nothing left in me… like i cant breathe i think about suicide alot! , almost twice a day i have tried to commit 5 timess.. 3 by over dose and 2 by cutting… i currently have been self harming to realese pain.. i need a way out i need [...]

Why do i feel like dying? why am i frigtened of suicide? why am i not affected when someone commits suicide? why does my mother hate me? why are people constantly abusing me? why?????????????????

As i siad yesterday I keep feeling my time is near, I was right.  It is.  See ya on the flipside.

On August 16, 2009, I recieved
a phone call early in the morning
that my brother shot himself.
I jumped out of the bed and went over his house. The scenero is a terrible feeling that i wish no one
will have to experience. I even had to identify his body. Since he
passed away my life have been
distorted with [...]

hey everyone.
i don’t have too much to say but i’ll start off by mentioning that this post isn’t at all for myself.
there are a lot of people who come to this site and write down their experiences/situations for others to read, but many of us here don’t really receive help.
the only way things fall away [...]

How is it that I have parents and siblings who love me friends who care for me and good grades nothing bad yet I still want to die and I compare my life to others who have the complete opposite of mine and they want to live but they have such slim chances of that. [...]

I think I’ve figured it out. Well, sort of. What I mean is how I can go through life with this constant desire to die, but never the will to. It’s not that I want to be dead, it’s that I want life to go away. I want to live a life that is as [...]

Not really good at this,  never posted anything on the internet before.   Hmmmm, I am not a teenager,  desperately poor,  medically uncomfortable or in any way outside of normal.   I have a career, a beutiful daughter and a wife that wants to be with me.  There has always been something there, and i cant explain [...]

A friend of mine told me I’m ok with all this sufferin’, as if I really mean to be like this to punish somebody or to, even worst, punish myself. Maybe once I refused to give my parents the awful pain caused by my death, but now there’s nothing… really nothing that wants me to [...]

The only reason that I’m still alive and able to write this is because I’m not ready to inflict such upset and pain on my loved ones.
Over the years I have seen too many relatives and close friends suffer lengthy, painful and undignified deaths. Following the death of my mother several years ago I determined [...]