My Grandma and I were really close she and my Grandpa lived in our basement and everyday I would go down and hang out with her then she had to move to a home, because of her parkingsons, and I didn’t see herr as often and it was hard seeing her there, unable to move, [...]

I cut myself all the time every where, I hate my body it’s so ugly and fat and disgusting, I want it all to stop! my family doesn’t understand and I feel lost and alone all the time I try to kill myself everyday and it never works, I don’t want to be here and [...]

I don’t know what to do anymore. Here’s why: 1: I’m a SI (self-injurer) and I just cannot seem to stop. No matter how hard I try. I have scars everywhere. I feel like a freak. I try to hide the scars, but everyone in school keeps asking me if I’m EMO. I hate it!!! [...]

While ago,  I wrote two very long, detailed  essays on this site, praised for it’s style and eloquence…Now I’m reduced to this… SUFFERING. SUFFERING. SUFFERING, SUFFERING…. HUMILIATION. HUMILIATION. HUMILATION, HUMILATION…. DESPAIR. DESPAIR. DESPAIR, DESPAIR…. I can’t breath, I’m suffocating… I can’t take this shit  anymore… Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!

This all really started 9/30/09 when my boyfriend commited suicide wich makes 2people in my live dead my brother and boyfriend. I have always been depressed since my brother but after my boyfriend was gone that hit the button and i took amidate action i started cutting my self and i recently last wednesday tried to [...]

Apathy, depression, rage, insanity, the split of your personality, the controll you know you lost long ago, the hours of sleep lost, opression, introversion. How can something be all of this, possess all of these emotions, without physically being able to be indentified as any of them. The darkness that infects people can never really [...]

I’m wholly unremarkable. Not painfully introverted but not an extrovert, either. Not child-frighteningly hideous, but far from gorgeous. I’m not the best at anything, nor the worst at anything. I am, when taken at face value, the epitome of mediocrity. I don’t turn heads. I won’t turn the pages of history. I’m just so completely [...]

…and no one cares. it seems everything i do in my life anymore falls apart. if only one person in my life can come and say I care and can i help would make a difference. no on does anymore it seems in short supply. what is going on with people? reminds me of that [...]

I’m still waiting for something to happen. Not something special that could finally brings me to the end of this pain. Everything is fine, everything makes me feel this is the very end. I don’t know if I’m the weird one. I want some help but at the same time I isolated myself avoiding others, [...]

I feel like i’m half alive. Everything in my life is veiwed in color, yet emotionally it’s grey. At times I feel like killing myself, yet on the other hand, I might miss out on love. It feels as if im not part of my body, more stuck inside it.  everything to me looks so [...]