Archive for October, 2009

I hate this…

Friday, October 23rd, 2009

Parents yelling at you Boyfriend cheating and doing drugs Sisters pissed at you Friends ignoring you for guys Whats the point of living? Find something, anything sharp Slowy drag across your wrist Than faster and faster It hurts, but i wont stop I hope this hurts you to mom,dad,lizzie,lexie,mackenzie,abby,nico But it doesnt… I do it [...]

i did it again

Friday, October 23rd, 2009

well i jus got home and made my mom burst into tears within minutes of walking in the door. a disappointment. i am a worn and torn suitcase….i carry lies, drugs, sex, violence, and far worse with in me. no one want to own a worn and torn suitcase…they want the brand new ones. my [...]

please let me help

Friday, October 23rd, 2009

hey everyone. i don’t have too much to say but i’ll start off by mentioning that this post isn’t at all for myself. there are a lot of people who come to this site and write down their experiences/situations for others to read, but many of us here don’t really receive help. the only way [...]

Well…

Friday, October 23rd, 2009

There was this Wednesday where I left school early (was a senior at the time). I came home, nobody was there except for my dog, Jun, who went crazy seeing that I wasn’t paying any attention to her. I went upstairs, already a wrist-cutter (just not a suicidal one), filled a bathtub of hot water, [...]

Tell me

Friday, October 23rd, 2009

tell me whom should i go to for help tell me who can help me tell me where do i run to get away from my troubles tell me where is the refuge tell me who can i talk to that will understand tell me when the help will arrive tell me how to get [...]

A Little Hope

Friday, October 23rd, 2009

I can empathize with many of the stories that I have read on here. I have battled depression for more than 6 years and I am a suicide survivor. Depression is a serious disease! Depression is not the same thing as getting sad after a bad experience such as losing a loved one or even [...]

because i dont know how anymore

Friday, October 23rd, 2009

fuck.

A Million Different Reasons for the Same Old Shit

Thursday, October 22nd, 2009

Because I could put on all the makeup in the world and I wouldn’t be beautiful. Because I gave you everything I had to give. Because I always forget to see the end. Because I think this is the end. Of something anyway. Because I’ll never be good enough. Because forever is a lie. Because [...]

They say I’m strong, but really…I’m just a coward

Thursday, October 22nd, 2009

I had never wanted to die so much as I did last week. I don’t want to go into details because I’ve reached a point of apathy to survive. I want to die and to be at peace once and for all, and I know how to make it look like an accident. I’m too [...]

what is to live for anyway.

Thursday, October 22nd, 2009

ok well i am just going to say what is going on so perhaps someone can tell me what to do because the only thing i can think of to do is stop taking my morphine and dilaudid save them up and then take all of them at once so i dont have to deal [...]