Comments on: Solitude… http://suicideproject.org/2009/10/solitude/ share your suicide story with others Thu, 24 May 2012 08:24:23 +0000 hourly 1 By: not-good-enough http://suicideproject.org/2009/10/solitude/comment-page-1/#comment-36907 not-good-enough Sat, 31 Oct 2009 05:46:41 +0000 http://suicideproject.org/?p=4822#comment-36907 I completly connect with your story, my sister died of skin cancer (melanoma) she was 17, I was 16 at the time, I'm 28 years old now, but I remember it so well, everyone loved her more than me, cousins, friends she always had a boyfriend. I was kinda a chubby kid, so I was rejected in that sense. So I have always been suicidal, and still am and I am so angry with my sister, I know its messed up but I am envious of her death, it should have been me instead, no one loved me, everyone misses her so damn much!!! And so I think when/if I kill myself, will everyone cry at my funeral like they did for her? Don't even bother coming to my funeral, just dump me in a box and bury me. I completly connect with your story, my sister died of skin cancer (melanoma) she was 17, I was 16 at the time, I’m 28 years old now, but I remember it so well, everyone loved her more than me, cousins, friends she always had a boyfriend. I was kinda a chubby kid, so I was rejected in that sense. So I have always been suicidal, and still am and I am so angry with my sister, I know its messed up but I am envious of her death, it should have been me instead, no one loved me, everyone misses her so damn much!!! And so I think when/if I kill myself, will everyone cry at my funeral like they did for her? Don’t even bother coming to my funeral, just dump me in a box and bury me.

]]> By: MakingItThrough http://suicideproject.org/2009/10/solitude/comment-page-1/#comment-36890 MakingItThrough Fri, 30 Oct 2009 05:14:14 +0000 http://suicideproject.org/?p=4822#comment-36890 Hello to both of you. I lost my dad this year and it's really, really hard. Dating is particularly hard, because the idea of being rejected/abandoned seems like too much to handle--like, wouldn't you rather die than go through the feeling of losing someone you love again so soon? But I do have to say, guys, I'm a bit older than you are, and life in your 20's is absolutely worth living. Everyone says it, and it's true. If I do the math right, the author is 15-ish and Daniel21 is a teen as well. Although I feel for both of you, and totally understand your pain, I also want you to know that there are a LOT of great things coming your way. Growing up and leaving home ROCKS--you'll meet interesting people, and you can choose to move away from the pain and the memories for a few years (or decades!). The 18-24 year old years are SO worth waiting for, you guys, so please, please know that someone out there who's a bit older is rooting for you and cares about you. Don't give up! There are great lives, and loves, in both of your futures. And the pain will eventually end... right? Hello to both of you. I lost my dad this year and it’s really, really hard. Dating is particularly hard, because the idea of being rejected/abandoned seems like too much to handle–like, wouldn’t you rather die than go through the feeling of losing someone you love again so soon?

But I do have to say, guys, I’m a bit older than you are, and life in your 20′s is absolutely worth living. Everyone says it, and it’s true. If I do the math right, the author is 15-ish and Daniel21 is a teen as well. Although I feel for both of you, and totally understand your pain, I also want you to know that there are a LOT of great things coming your way. Growing up and leaving home ROCKS–you’ll meet interesting people, and you can choose to move away from the pain and the memories for a few years (or decades!). The 18-24 year old years are SO worth waiting for, you guys, so please, please know that someone out there who’s a bit older is rooting for you and cares about you. Don’t give up! There are great lives, and loves, in both of your futures. And the pain will eventually end… right?

]]> By: Daniel21 http://suicideproject.org/2009/10/solitude/comment-page-1/#comment-36889 Daniel21 Thu, 29 Oct 2009 23:51:32 +0000 http://suicideproject.org/?p=4822#comment-36889 That is messed up, almost the same thing happened 2 me. I started 2 get depressed round 3rd grade so it didnt help at all wen i lost my grandma. She died wen i wuz i fifth grade and i lost it. I cared bout her alot, and she had even been living with us because she had dymensia(bout the same thing as alshimers). I basically couldnt even talk for a year, i hated my life so much and still do. But, she did want 2 die, at least i think she did. I wuz in the 4th grade wen my grandma tried 2 kill herself by chugging pills right infront of me. And i just started dating again 2. Not 2 long ago i figured out that no matter wut happens i will still be fucked up and depressed 4 the rest of my life, so i am trying to live a sumwut normal life now. I have always planned on having a very short life, so if i dont kill myself before i hit 18 im gunna join the millitary. So, im hopin that i wont live 2 see 20, but if i pass 20 i may just end up killin myself after all. That is messed up, almost the same thing happened 2 me. I started 2 get depressed round 3rd grade so it didnt help at all wen i lost my grandma. She died wen i wuz i fifth grade and i lost it. I cared bout her alot, and she had even been living with us because she had dymensia(bout the same thing as alshimers). I basically couldnt even talk for a year, i hated my life so much and still do. But, she did want 2 die, at least i think she did. I wuz in the 4th grade wen my grandma tried 2 kill herself by chugging pills right infront of me. And i just started dating again 2. Not 2 long ago i figured out that no matter wut happens i will still be fucked up and depressed 4 the rest of my life, so i am trying to live a sumwut normal life now. I have always planned on having a very short life, so if i dont kill myself before i hit 18 im gunna join the millitary. So, im hopin that i wont live 2 see 20, but if i pass 20 i may just end up killin myself after all.

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