I hate myself   and want to die

I’m going to ask you all to bear with me for the forthcoming bullshit. It’s nothing more, or less, honestly. I sincerely, truly, unfathomably, hate myself. As I sit here trying to think of words that appropriately describe my self-hatred, my mind is completely blank. The word ‘hate’ doesn’t even seem fitting anymore. I’m beyond [...]

So, it’s just about December… and just about that time. On December 4th 2008, (Last year) my mother died. She’d been sick for like….7 years etc. I’ve mentioned this before, but now as the time where her pain was greatest creeps by i find it hard to breathe. I feel numb everywhere and i don’t [...]

hey everyone. i don’t have too much to say but i’ll start off by mentioning that this post isn’t at all for myself. there are a lot of people who come to this site and write down their experiences/situations for others to read, but many of us here don’t really receive help. the only way [...]

hey everyone. i don’t have too much to say but i’ll start off by mentioning that this post isn’t at all for myself. there are a lot of people who come to this site and write down their experiences/situations for others to read, but many of us here don’t really receive help. the only way [...]

hey everyone. i don’t have too much to say but i’ll start off by mentioning that this post isn’t at all for myself. there are a lot of people who come to this site and write down their experiences/situations for others to read, but many of us here don’t really receive help. the only way [...]

Let me first say im just sad, not depressed or suicidal just sad alright here goes my ex bf of 1.5 yr broke up with me a month ago, and it broke my heart, u see i really love this guy, more than anyone else, and my friend helped me through it. and we became [...]

“as you look through the window all you can think about is how you messed up. you screwed up erverything and everyone. you told! you are the one who hurt everyone. even though they say you didnt, you know you are the one who did. then you try to stop hurting everyone, you push away. [...]

i look out the window and try to forget all that goes on around me. because just for a minute i want to forget all the bad and think of some good. there has to be good! there just has to! or else why do people live so long?? but i just cant seem to [...]

When I picture killing myself I don’t think about the act itself. (Col. Mustard with the candlestick in the kitchen.) I picture myself on a raft in the middle of the ocean. My eyes are closed as the waves gently rock me like a loving mother rocks her sleeping child. The sun is beating down [...]