help.me.please.?
November 30th, 2009 by sheneverwasim fifteen, suppose to be high on life. im bisexual, been int the hospial 3 times. i have overdosed, slit my wrst and i have even tried drowning. ive tried przac, valium, pristique, everything in the book.
its like ive died and im still here.
i tried killing myself a year and a half ago. i slit both my wrist up and down and bled but my brother walked in. i have spent three months in therapy already and nothing has changed. my life is nothing more than a fucking blah. i dont know what to do. my parents told me i was a “stupid shit” for doing that. they also told me im disgusting becuase im bisexual. they literally ignore me bacause of that. and they made me pay for the blood stain on mother’s carpet. what the fuck.
they dont appreciate anything i try to do. i seriously have tried my hardest to see life through happy eyes but i cant.
no one fucking get it. i have scars that you can count for hours and still not finish. i dont even feel relieved when i cut but i still try, i want to feel some kind of relief…
but i cant.
i even tried medication but i still cant seem to fee; anything.
help
me
please.
im
fucking
begging.
November 30th, 2009 at 10:20 pm
dude i’m begging too, to help you. please let me. see my post here: http://suicideproject.org/2009/11/please-5/
December 1st, 2009 at 2:18 am
Oh honey I’m bisexual too, and I can tell you it’s not disgusting in any way, in fact it’s quite beautiful… I mean in being bi your opening yourself up to the whole of humanity as a possible love interest… if that makes sense!? And to be honest; I sorta feel sorry for those people who are exclusively heterosexual or homosexual, cuz my ability to love is not limited by such boring things as a persons birth sex or gender identity. And K3T, please leave this kid alone, don’t preach!!!
December 1st, 2009 at 7:12 pm
thanks shelly.
for the longest time,
ive thought of myself as disgusting and horrible.
its nice to finally hear something positive for once in my life…
December 1st, 2009 at 11:54 pm
Try to forget about the past as much as you can. Look at it and say that’s fucked up, I deserve better. And make it better for yourself. Try doing things like helping out at animal shelters, or a retirement home. Sure, it might sound a little strange but every monday I got help homeless cats for just an hour and I always feel better. They need you and rely on you and love you. And its something you can do that’s actually kinda fun. Next time you want to cut or hurt yourself, remember that you’ve tried that before. And the pain has come back. Try something good for you. I hope I’ve helped. Stay strong!
December 2nd, 2009 at 3:28 am
That’s okay sweetie; I’m happy to talk anytime, and sorry if what I said didn’t exactly make sense. But I haven’t been sleeping well, so when I wrote that ^ I was seriously overtired. But I truly meant what I said!!! ^_^
December 2nd, 2009 at 3:30 am
That’s really cool anita, I like cats too, and I love animals in general…
December 2nd, 2009 at 11:18 am
http://www.bisexual.org
December 2nd, 2009 at 11:19 am
I hope that helps sweetie… =)
December 2nd, 2009 at 10:42 pm
thanks so much Shelly and Anita
incredible how you can find a friend who actually helps
when those who are around you cant…
it really does help.
December 3rd, 2009 at 2:03 am
Your welcome honey. Take care of yourself okay, you deserve happiness, and whether you eventually end up with a man or another woman know that being bisexual is normal for you… and millions of other people. And also whenever people tell you that being bisexual is immoral and disgusting remember these words: Bi is Best!!! Take pride in who you are, okay!? ^_^
December 3rd, 2009 at 3:11 pm
Oh babe I’m a bisexual too and it’s not disgusting! It’s an amazing feeling! It made me feel again and there is nothing wrong with it…i cut to and it doesn’t really help me anymore either and love i’m sorry! i truely am, you have been threw everything that i have been threw and its hard i know! It fucking sucks but guess what you are beautiful, you are!!! Your family doesn’t understand but you don’t have to care about that…soon you can leave your house and live your life the way you want to and not have to deal with the parents that take yuour money like that and don’t even care why you did it…babe it’s okayy really there are ppl out there who are here to listen if you want you can email me at: JadeckMayDark@Live.com
I’ll listen to you love.
December 3rd, 2009 at 11:02 pm
you people are incredible
i dont even know you yet i feel you get me already.
it blows my mind.
thank you.
it helps tremendously.
i feel….
kinda happy…..
which is wierd…..
i really dont know what to do?
when im at school, i think about your words and it gets me through the teasing and bullying.