Archive for December, 2009

Broken shattered and forgotten

Thursday, December 31st, 2009

About 5 months ago my boyfriend of 3 years dumped me for someone else. I was and still am shattered. He was my everything. Everyone said I would get better but I haven’t. If anything I’ve gotten worse. I hate my life so much and I really don’t want to be alive. Since he broke [...]

R.I.P Mommy

Thursday, December 31st, 2009

Hello,
My names Kelsey Renzella, and I’m 15 years old. I live with my grandma in McMechen WV. Almost one year ago my mother killed
herself in the midst of a rocky divorce with my father. Prior to her suicide my mom was addicted to prescription pain
relievers, taking depression medication, and taking part in illegal drugs. She [...]

order of death

Thursday, December 31st, 2009

There is an elite group of eugenists out there that have a lot of power and influence over the societies we all live in.  So much so that we are now living under a scientific dictatorship and pretty soon we will not even have the sanctity of our own minds for escape.  Doubt me?  Look [...]

not so silent suffering

Thursday, December 31st, 2009

I have been depressed off and on for about 5-6 years. It seems to come and go, but when I am down, I get really down. I dont think, for the most part, that anyone around me cares or even takes me seriously.
Even though I dont come out and tell people how bad my depression [...]

Suicide Is Selfish

Wednesday, December 30th, 2009

Why does suicide have to be such a selfish act? Why can’t it just be that a person can kill themselves when they fell they’ve sufficiently fucked up this life enough to no repair and no one has to suffer. But it’s never that easy.

lost it all

Wednesday, December 30th, 2009

worked hard,three jobs,raising two kids,was hit in car wreck by 17 old boy. lost all three jobs within mins because one had m.s. one is a quad perapliject …and couple in wheel chairs….i was a caregiver, went to school i have my medical assitant cert. i am now on disibility due to the wreck [...]

poems and promises

Wednesday, December 30th, 2009

ive written on here once you may rebember me from the post “if you care please read!!”
ive decided on something. ive read through comments and posts and decided on something, if i ended my life, i would end up hurting everyone who has ever cared. about a week ago i made a promise to my [...]

failure

Wednesday, December 30th, 2009

It all began when i was 11. I lived with my mom my whole life, and with both parents up until i was 8. My mom has always been a very emotional person, so in 2007, she got put into the hospital for depression. I never really thought anything of it. Until i knew something [...]

please. its not worth it.

Wednesday, December 30th, 2009

please dont do it. have some hope, please. im not gonna sit here and tell you that jesus loves you and God loves you….cuz i know its crap. but please dont give up. my best friend gave up in may 2009….she suffocated herself. and now her family is miserable, and im miserable. there is always [...]

Please no tomorrow.

Tuesday, December 29th, 2009

I’ve been depressed and suicidal for about a year now. This all started when my boyfriend killed himself. We were really close, i have never been that close with anyone. We got along amazingly, we could talk about everything. He was the one who made me laugh when i was feeling down and vice versa. [...]