Archive for January, 2010

What now?

Friday, January 29th, 2010

I am nothing, I have nothing to offer myself or anyone else. I am socially inept. I can’t imagine what would make me useful to myself, my family or society. I feel like a permanent outsider. I just want to be like everyone else. I have no idea how to do that. I just don’t [...]

Just Drunk Enough To Say This…

Friday, January 29th, 2010

When you tell people that you’re drunk, they tend to turn away. But I can’t keep doing this by myself… I’ve lost my friends, my son, everything. God, here comes the tears… I just can’t do it anymore. I’m drunk enough to post this, but sober enough to be honest. I need help, and I [...]

Gud people get hurt the worst

Thursday, January 28th, 2010

I hate feeling sorry 4 myself but sumtyms I just cant take all the pretending. Everyone always say I have everything going 4 me and I’m so lucky…but apart from skool my life’s a mess. I always try to be a gud person…I try 2 never think,say or do bad things 2 people,I do volunteer [...]

death

Thursday, January 28th, 2010

I have been kicked out of school…there is no where to go, everyone think i’m the best…im the ideal person. How do i tell anyone what im going through? it so hard. i’m not perfect..im fat, im single, i don’t have anyone to call my own. I feel like dying is the only way out. [...]

With apologies

Thursday, January 28th, 2010

I am fifty years old. Ten years ago I was diagnosed with breast cancer. It hasn’t come back. My husband started an affair a year after the diagnosis, and legally separated from me three years after that. We have two children, 11 and 14. We split custody. My husband is an excellent father and financially [...]

Thursday, January 28th, 2010

I don’t know why I keep thinking people will change. That there are some people out there who genuinely care about others. I can’t keep doing this. The end.

Just me

Thursday, January 28th, 2010

I don’t want to be anyone or anything. I don’t want anything out of life. The more I learn the more it seems that everything is just a thoughtless process. I don’t like coffee, or beer, or cigarettes, or art, or sports or social activities. I actually find these things so useless that they scare [...]

I cant take it

Wednesday, January 27th, 2010

im tired, worn out, dont feel like going on. no one cares, they simply hide behind false smiles. i put on this facade everyday that im alright, but then i just sit and laugh as people go about their daily lives, seemingly care free. i was depressed, and sent to a rehab center, and there [...]

I Don’t Know Anymore.

Wednesday, January 27th, 2010

My life has been so hard.Mom’s boyfriend molested me.My father beat.My mother didn’t love me.Then I fell in love with a guy who beats me and tortures me.I want to be a good mother but I can’t because I don’t feel like a good person if I was a good person people would love me. [...]

Close

Wednesday, January 27th, 2010

I’ve been on the edge, I suffer from Depression, and several other types of sicknesses. I’m close to just igniteing the charcoal in a closed room. If one thing I’ve learned from life, and philosiphy, it’s that this life has no importance (heaven, or no heaven, life still has no meaning). If I’m to go [...]