im fed up. i cant kill myself and ironically that makes me want to do it more. im fat and ugly and horrible and useless and this whole fucking world would be better off if i was fuckibng dead.

“Come to me, all of you who are weary and carry heavy burdens, and I will give you rest.” – Jesus, Matthew 11:28 hey everyone. i don’t have too much to say but i’ll start off by mentioning that this post isn’t at all for myself. there are a lot of people who come to [...]

She’s evil. I’ve never hated someone more than I’ve hated her, simply because of the fact that she is the most evil woman I’ve ever known. Before I go out, I’m taking her lover. I won’t take her. That’s a cop out. She needs to understand exactly what it’s like losing love. I’m not sad [...]

I’ve been there. A place no one wants to go. Not ever. Being touched in bed at night, to being beaten unconscious. Life never gets better for me. I now lay awake at night scared of him coming in. Scared to close my eyes and I’d open them and he’d be there. That pain never [...]

I walk these darkened streets. Full of death and deceit. Every smile holds a bold faced lie. Nothing is real. This facade will surely be over soon. I walk with an emptiness inside me. A pain too great but I have to let it be. Someone has to save me from myself. But there’s no [...]

Hey Everyone, I just lost my job in the automotive industry.  I have seen this coming for a good 5 or 6 years now but have not done much about it.  Some people I work with have become aware of a co-worker who recently offed himself by jumping off the roof of a casino when [...]

My partners mum drove to a field in the middle of nowhere, covered herself and her car in petrol and set light. She did not live. This happened around 4 months ago and my partner was doing ok and i think things have now started to sink in. He is (understandably) a complete mess. He [...]

Okay so at first look one would obviously think I’ve got it going good. I’ve got a beautiful son a husband and lots of friends. I’m still maintaining a job even through out this terrible recession or whatever you want to call it. There are just some things I can’t seem to get passed. And now [...]

I am a 21 year old male college student. At age 16 I was very depressed and thought suicide was a way out. After some counseling and some time, I was “better.” Then I went to college and met the woman of my dreams. Quite literally, I had this image of the perfect woman and [...]

once again, sitting here patheticly writing about what im doing, hoping that someone will try to stop me, but knowing that i’ll just get mad at anyone who does. so i sit here again. with my blade. cutting my own flesh to the point of blood.