Comments on: No longer. http://suicideproject.org/2010/02/no-longer/ share your suicide story with others Thu, 24 May 2012 15:35:27 +0000 hourly 1 By: Lianeh http://suicideproject.org/2010/02/no-longer/comment-page-1/#comment-41149 Lianeh Thu, 29 Apr 2010 05:03:24 +0000 http://suicideproject.org/?p=7271#comment-41149 Yep..The hospital didn't help me whatsoever, it wasted my time..All it did was show my parents how much of a problem everything is..they understand a bit more now..but..not sure what to say.. No, video game testing is definitely not for me. Thanks though. Yep..The hospital didn’t help me whatsoever, it wasted my time..All it did was show my parents how much of a problem everything is..they understand a bit more now..but..not sure what to say.. No, video game testing is definitely not for me. Thanks though.

]]> By: Survivor0244 http://suicideproject.org/2010/02/no-longer/comment-page-1/#comment-41088 Survivor0244 Tue, 27 Apr 2010 20:05:00 +0000 http://suicideproject.org/?p=7271#comment-41088 I'm sorry to hear that you went to the hospital and didn't think it helped at all. I know it takes a lot of courage to go in there and try and get help. A lot of times (unfortunately) places aren't aware of how to help or maybe you just don't "click" with the doctors you are assigned. I know a high school guy that tests video games for a job. Maybe that's something you would be interested in? He gets paid to play! I’m sorry to hear that you went to the hospital and didn’t think it helped at all. I know it takes a lot of courage to go in there and try and get help. A lot of times (unfortunately) places aren’t aware of how to help or maybe you just don’t “click” with the doctors you are assigned.
I know a high school guy that tests video games for a job. Maybe that’s something you would be interested in? He gets paid to play!

]]> By: Lianeh http://suicideproject.org/2010/02/no-longer/comment-page-1/#comment-40160 Lianeh Sat, 10 Apr 2010 07:22:41 +0000 http://suicideproject.org/?p=7271#comment-40160 Yup, I'm still here... My cat has no name, I just call her cat and kitty...I'm 17 years old..and just to let everyone know..I just got out of the hospital..got sent there because I'm suicidal, meh..That place was a prison and helped me none. Right now I'm trying to find a way I can live playing games all day long, and not having to work a job..I can't deal with a job. Yup, I’m still here… My cat has no name, I just call her cat and kitty…I’m 17 years old..and just to let everyone know..I just got out of the hospital..got sent there because I’m suicidal, meh..That place was a prison and helped me none.

Right now I’m trying to find a way I can live playing games all day long, and not having to work a job..I can’t deal with a job.

]]> By: Survivor0244 http://suicideproject.org/2010/02/no-longer/comment-page-1/#comment-40057 Survivor0244 Wed, 07 Apr 2010 19:52:33 +0000 http://suicideproject.org/?p=7271#comment-40057 Lianeh, Are you still here? I hope so. I just found this site today and I enjoyed your writings. I love that you love your cat. What is your cat's name? I have a cat now named Gaia (said Guy-a). She is beautiful. And I used to have a cat named Buster that I absolutely adored. On my bad days, he would give me hugs. How old are you? I hope to hear from you. Lianeh, Are you still here? I hope so. I just found this site today and I enjoyed your writings. I love that you love your cat. What is your cat’s name? I have a cat now named Gaia (said Guy-a). She is beautiful. And I used to have a cat named Buster that I absolutely adored. On my bad days, he would give me hugs. How old are you?
I hope to hear from you.

]]> By: Lianeh http://suicideproject.org/2010/02/no-longer/comment-page-1/#comment-39439 Lianeh Tue, 16 Mar 2010 20:12:48 +0000 http://suicideproject.org/?p=7271#comment-39439 Embargo, I form my own views and opinions as well, heh.. and I suppose I have a similar 'belief' in what I consider 'God', but, that'd be too confusing to go into, even for myself. I, also, keep it to myself, but..I tend to keep most things to myself. Embargo, I form my own views and opinions as well, heh.. and I suppose I have a similar ‘belief’ in what I consider ‘God’, but, that’d be too confusing to go into, even for myself. I, also, keep it to myself, but..I tend to keep most things to myself.

]]> By: embargo http://suicideproject.org/2010/02/no-longer/comment-page-1/#comment-39425 embargo Tue, 16 Mar 2010 03:44:34 +0000 http://suicideproject.org/?p=7271#comment-39425 Lianeh- What works for me is I form my own views/opinions. I tried finding what matched up with me and didn't find any, so I just maintain my own beliefs and keep it to myself. That relationship is something between me and what I consider "God." Lianeh- What works for me is I form my own views/opinions. I tried finding what matched up with me and didn’t find any, so I just maintain my own beliefs and keep it to myself. That relationship is something between me and what I consider “God.”

]]> By: Lianeh http://suicideproject.org/2010/02/no-longer/comment-page-1/#comment-39422 Lianeh Tue, 16 Mar 2010 01:36:48 +0000 http://suicideproject.org/?p=7271#comment-39422 I've read up on a ton of religions, personally.. None appeal to me, and I'm afraid that I don't feel a calling to any of them, nor do I believe any of them. Religion, I suppose, is not my thing..but ofcourse, what is? I’ve read up on a ton of religions, personally.. None appeal to me, and I’m afraid that I don’t feel a calling to any of them, nor do I believe any of them. Religion, I suppose, is not my thing..but ofcourse, what is?

]]> By: SF09 http://suicideproject.org/2010/02/no-longer/comment-page-1/#comment-39418 SF09 Mon, 15 Mar 2010 21:31:40 +0000 http://suicideproject.org/?p=7271#comment-39418 THis is not addressed to anyone in particular, but there are other religions besides Christianity, so if that doesn't convince you, why not read up on all the others and see wht appeals to you. you never know what you'll come across, which might offer you so much peace. sf09life@yahoo.com if you want to discuss THis is not addressed to anyone in particular, but there are other religions besides Christianity, so if that doesn’t convince you, why not read up on all the others and see wht appeals to you. you never know what you’ll come across, which might offer you so much peace.

sf09life@yahoo.com if you want to discuss

]]> By: Lianeh http://suicideproject.org/2010/02/no-longer/comment-page-1/#comment-39417 Lianeh Mon, 15 Mar 2010 21:27:06 +0000 http://suicideproject.org/?p=7271#comment-39417 Also...I can tell that everything about me can no longer take it. Getting pushed in the hallway by accident, tripping, dropping something on my foot, getting made fun of, simply so they'll have something to laugh at, or because I'm different; anything at all pisses me off now. My anger-meter is rising every second, I get more and more mad at everything, annoyance, rage...it's all building up. I'll either explode, and who knows what will happen.. or I'll commit suicide and not have to deal with those things, and I won't bring harm to anyone that drew the shortest straw. I can't deal with it anymore, and my body, grades, everything, is being affected by it. I barely made it through the day, and now I no longer can, they are destroying me. Also…I can tell that everything about me can no longer take it. Getting pushed in the hallway by accident, tripping, dropping something on my foot, getting made fun of, simply so they’ll have something to laugh at, or because I’m different; anything at all pisses me off now. My anger-meter is rising every second, I get more and more mad at everything, annoyance, rage…it’s all building up. I’ll either explode, and who knows what will happen.. or I’ll commit suicide and not have to deal with those things, and I won’t bring harm to anyone that drew the shortest straw.

I can’t deal with it anymore, and my body, grades, everything, is being affected by it. I barely made it through the day, and now I no longer can, they are destroying me.

]]> By: Lianeh http://suicideproject.org/2010/02/no-longer/comment-page-1/#comment-39416 Lianeh Mon, 15 Mar 2010 20:56:58 +0000 http://suicideproject.org/?p=7271#comment-39416 Figured this post was forgotten about, I checked it for a few days, and then stopped checking it because it was too far behind..however..I am still alive. Don't go thinking I'm afraid now, if there was a gun in this house, I'd be gone in two minutes. I've tried so many things to try to be happy in this world. It's this world, and who I am. They do not mix for anything. I'm sure even if everything went my way in this world..I still wouldn't be very happy. I'm a misfit for this world, and I could go on and on about it, bringing up example after example about it..but that is not needed. Right now, the only thing realistic that would keep me alive right now, is if I was to stay alive simply to resist. Fight this world and everything terrible about it. Humans are masters of destruction, there will always be more bad people than there are good. All the good people are doing now is delaying the inevitable, causing suffering to go on longer than it needs to. I'm sure I have mental illnesses. I know I have OCD, and by many people's standards/tests, I have depression. I'm not sure if I truly have depression..I think I just hate this world, and hate what we've done to it. I know I have massive potential.. I feel I would be wasting it by committing suicide, but..I can't concentrate on anything long enough to do anything with my talents/potential. I have no desire to do anything in this world, besides be happy, which..obviously isn't going to happen. Ultimately, I am going to commit suicide. Not sure what else to say, besides something completely irrelevant, a lot of people know me as the most indecisive person on Earth..but one thing I can decide.. is I'm not happy here and will never be. Figured this post was forgotten about, I checked it for a few days, and then stopped checking it because it was too far behind..however..I am still alive.

Don’t go thinking I’m afraid now, if there was a gun in this house, I’d be gone in two minutes.

I’ve tried so many things to try to be happy in this world. It’s this world, and who I am. They do not mix for anything. I’m sure even if everything went my way in this world..I still wouldn’t be very happy. I’m a misfit for this world, and I could go on and on about it, bringing up example after example about it..but that is not needed.

Right now, the only thing realistic that would keep me alive right now, is if I was to stay alive simply to resist. Fight this world and everything terrible about it. Humans are masters of destruction, there will always be more bad people than there are good. All the good people are doing now is delaying the inevitable, causing suffering to go on longer than it needs to.

I’m sure I have mental illnesses. I know I have OCD, and by many people’s standards/tests, I have depression. I’m not sure if I truly have depression..I think I just hate this world, and hate what we’ve done to it.

I know I have massive potential.. I feel I would be wasting it by committing suicide, but..I can’t concentrate on anything long enough to do anything with my talents/potential. I have no desire to do anything in this world, besides be happy, which..obviously isn’t going to happen.

Ultimately, I am going to commit suicide. Not sure what else to say, besides something completely irrelevant, a lot of people know me as the most indecisive person on Earth..but one thing I can decide.. is I’m not happy here and will never be.

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