If you wanna kill yourself, do it! Just give me a few seconds before it, please.

March 27th, 2010 by dbcooper

Few days ago, I was searching for a method to end my life. If you are reading this, than I found it. Maybe it sounds silly, but this is true.
I’m just 19 years old. Last year I’ve got my driving licence, than I broke a few cars. I was a horrible person. After the cars got repaired, (forgot to say, that the accident wasn’t my fault. Who were there know that, but other people didn’t really believe what happened, so….) nobody trusted me, so i couldn’t drive anyomre (even my parents told me, that I’m a shame, and I will never get their car again. I felt horrible. I couldn’t find a person, whom I could tell everything I felt, because at the middle of the conversation, when I started to speak about my feelings, everybody started to smile or laugh. So I wanted to end my life. I’ve got a rope prepared to finish everything, but I couldn’t do that. I was afraid of the consequences. What if my attempt fails? What if someone finds me hanging on the rope and saves me? So, I never did it. Then things got even worse. I decided to find a way, that is perfect to finish my life. I did. Before the attempt, I was thinking about where will I find my self after I die? Probably in hell. That’s a bad place, I thought. I started to wonder, what if someone cares about me, about my life? If I do what I wanna do, I will never be able to know him. Few seconds later a mail landed in my mailbox. It came from a friend whom I met in 2005. The mail sad: “God loved the people of this world so much that he gave his only Son, so that everyone who has faith in him will have eternal life and never really die. God did not send his Son into the world to condemn its people. He sent him to save them! No one who has faith in God’s Son will be condemned. But everyone who doesn’t have faith in him has already been condemned for not having faith in God’s only Son.” Maybe you need someone to talk to, or somebody who understands you…. M****y.

I started to think. If this verse is true, than I’ve got a wonderful opportunity. After another hour of philosophy, I decided to give this thing a last chance.
What happened after that? Well, I died and born again. Of course not physically, I mean spiritually. God gave me a new life, and whit this new life enough strength to stand the pain every day gives me, and more of that. I’ve got joy! I didn’t feel something like this never before! And I have peace. Having pace, is an amazing thing.
If you want to kill yourself, do it, but first try what I did. Pray to gad, get to the nearest church. You can’t lose anything, can you?

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12 Responses to “If you wanna kill yourself, do it! Just give me a few seconds before it, please.”

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  1. Oh man, not another jesus freak

  2. get out

  3. I believe in some form of god and I believe they hate me

  4. ok, here’s the thing. I don’t believe in the Christian view of God, and I don’t believe in the bible being the true word of God. It was at one point, then it got corrupted while translating, and copying and printing. There are soooo many inconsistencies in the bible. Don’t believe me? See for yourself:

    http://www.infidels.org/library/modern/donald_morgan/inconsistencies.html

    I personally have a few questions about this belief:

    1. Please explain the true meaning of “The Trinity”. How can 3 things be one? They are either three, or they are one, not both. This is the first major inconsistency. How can 3 =1?? can you prove this mathematically?

    2. How is Jesus son of God and God at the same time? Isn’t he also the son of Mary? Does that mean he is half-god?

    3. Isn’t it really easy to say that Jesus died for your sins so you’re automatically forgiven for future heinous activities? That’s a great cop-out which takes away responsibility from your actions.

    4. Why does an innocent man (Jesus) have to die to save us sinners? (And please don’t say because God loves us, so he gave up his only begotten son)

    5. Why is there original sin? Consider this: Your great-great-great-great grandpa stole an apple. The owner of that apple tree decides to forgive ur grandpa and instead hunts down his children and punishes them for that even though they were not even present when it happened? this is so dangerous philosophically! are to pay for other’s mistakes? just like jesus died for your sins even though he was totally innocent?

    6. What happened to those who lived before Jesus’s time? Were they not saved?

    These are just a few of the reasons why i find it VERY hard to accept christianity.

    sf09life@yahoo.com

  5. I just realized that I probably came across as an atheist in the previous post. But I’m not. I believe in one God, He does not have a son, nor does He have a father. There is none like Him.

    He is God, the One and Only
    God, the Eternal, the Absolute
    He begetteth not, nor is He begotten
    And there is none like unto Him

  6. ok, here’s the thing. I don’t believe in the Christian view of God, and I don’t believe in the bible being the true word of God. It was at one point, then it got corrupted while translating, and copying and printing. There are soooo many inconsistencies in the bible. Don’t believe me? See for yourself:

    http://www.infidels.org/library/modern/donald_morgan/inconsistencies.html

    I personally have a few questions about this belief:

    1. Please explain the true meaning of “The Trinity”. How can 3 things be one? They are either three, or they are one, not both. This is the first major inconsistency. How can 3 =1?? can you prove this mathematically?

    2. How is Jesus son of God and God at the same time? Isn’t he also the son of Mary? Does that mean he is half-god?

    3. Isn’t it really easy to say that Jesus died for your sins so you’re automatically forgiven for future heinous activities? That’s a great cop-out which takes away responsibility from your actions.

    4. Why does an innocent man (Jesus) have to die to save us sinners? (And please don’t say because God loves us, so he gave up his only begotten son)

    5. Why is there original sin? Consider this: Your great-great-great-great grandpa stole an apple. The owner of that apple tree decides to forgive ur grandpa and instead hunts down his children and punishes them for that even though they were not even present when it happened? this is so dangerous philosophically! are to pay for other’s mistakes? just like jesus died for your sins even though he was totally innocent?

    6. What happened to those who lived before Jesus’s time? Were they not saved?

    These are just a few of the reasons why i find it VERY hard to accept christianity.

    sf09life@yahoo.com

  7. http://quranexplorer.com/Quran/Default.aspx

    Read it just once and let me know what you think. Might as well see what it has to say. I guarantee it’ll get you thinking

  8. First of all, thank you for reading my post:D. I dunno if I have to explain you those things u wrote down above.
    Let’s say that I’m totally wrong and after death there’s nothing. No reincarnation, no heaven or hell… simply nothing. If I’m wrong, than I am not loosing anything, during this painful life. BUT if I’m right, than you are in serious trouble. You are walking like a zombie down here, than, after death you are going to hell… So you are getting a new body, you will remember your days on earth, you will remember that I told you the truth, but you did not listen to me. Between never ending sorrows, you’ll wish you could die, but you won’t be able to commit suicide there…

    1. GOD created the rules of this world, he IS above them.
    2. Refer to point 1.
    3. Yes it is. That’s why I’m still alive.
    4. First of all, Jesus is not a man. If you would have a kid (maybe you have one or more), and he would need another heart, wouldn’t you give him yours? You are God’s creation. He died and resurrected for his own creations. Of course he loves you the most…
    5. No, you don’t pay for your grandpa’s mistakes. Jesus did it on the cross already.
    6. Those who lived before Christ, lived in the Old Testamental times. You can read about it more..
    http://www.faithalone.org/journal/2003i/bryant.pdf

    Following Jesus it’s not easy at all, but it’s worth the price.

  9. I remember as a kid a fundie loony telling me that all the people who lived in heathen countries, like China or Japan, who hadn’t heard the message of Christ went to hell cuz their souls hadn’t been saved… even though they’d never heard of christianity in the 1st place! So if that’s the sort of twisted thing you fuckers believe in, which I know you do, then please go jump…

  10. @dbcooper

    Thanks for your reply, I appreciate it =) But i’m not entirely satisfied with your answers.
    1. Why would He want to confuse you all with this? Isn’t it just easier for there to be ONE God, in ONE form? (Which is what I think anyway). He doesn’t need for His “son” to die for you all because if He wanted, He could’ve wiped out all your sins just like that.

    2. Refer to 1

    3. Great answer. Absolves you from any future sins you commit. You never have to answer for them? If you apply that to our world right now, wouldn’t it be considered unfair if someone went completely free after committing sins? (I’m talking about you Christians here, not the other people, who according to you are going to hell)

    4. If Jesus is not man, why was he born of a woman? He had a miraculous birth, yes, but He was a man! He ate, drank, slept did all the biological activities that we did (except procreate of course), so in what way is he not a man? I agree that I’m God’s creation and He loves us all, but we’re wrong in saying that He had a son! God is Unique, there is NO way we can compare Him to ourselves.

    5. Please read what I said more carefully. I was giving you a hypothetical example with this one, referring to the Original Sin doctrine that you believe in. Why is a baby born with sin, when it doesn’t even know what sin is? This is what I meant with all human beings having to pay for our ancestors crimes..Unfair no?

    6. I agree with you about this one. Not in the same way though. Every nation was sent a messenger from among it’s own people. Those who followed them, were on the right path.

    Good for you about your faith. One needs to turn a questioning eye to everything and figure stuff out for oneself. It’s very easy to blindly accept things, but when you see that something is so blatantly wrong, it doesn’t hurt to dig deeper and figure it out logically. (Referring to the Bible here). I once again repeat that God is Unique, does not have a son and to Him will we all be gathered back. And He will judge between us as to our discrepancies. Also no soul will bear the burden of another (original sin) because this is extremely unfair and therefore could not be decreed by a Just God, and God is indeed Just.

    And funny you should mention the “I will remember that you told me the truth, and I’ll regret it after I die” part. That’s exactly what I was going to tell you! But I just wanted to have a civilized conversation about this and thank you for being very gracious. I hope we can talk about this more, I’d love to get your viewpoint on many things.

    sf09life@yahoo.com

  11. I am sorry, I didn’t actually finish reading your comments and I truly mean that I am sorry for that, no sarcasm. But it started seeming so ridiculous either way that you were going to take it. Either, ” here’s the best way to truly kill yourself or some christian having an epiphany. I think that your still at the stage of trying to express yourself and that can be very difficult. Maybe for you your between rage and wanting sympathy? I don’t know. Please don’t let any of my words offend you, I truly only mean to give my opinion to help and not to upset.

    lol, I just read the last part of your letter where you found God. Good for you! I did that once too! It’s a really long fall from that climb you just made and extraordinary painful on the way down, but once you’ve accomplished it your probably as stupid as I am that you’ll keep trying to climb back up!

    ………….Hopefully so……………..

  12. I am sorry to tell someone this but that comment saying

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