I’m not sure where to start, I’m not very good in expressing myself in paper. I found this website today after thinking about suicide yesterday. It’s good to know that there are others out there who have similar thoughts. I don’t think I ever was serious about committing suicide, because I don’t want to hurt [...]

i really dont know when i lost all controll of my life.. whats worse is my wife (trying to help) keeps telling me you have alot to look foward to.. or youll get through this… but im so tired of “getting through” things… i dont think i have it in me any more. whats worse [...]

“It is our choices that show what we truly are, far more than our abilities.” I’m DEATHLY afraid. (no pun intended) I’ve talked about wanting to die, needing to die, trying to die, but I’m afraid to die. It’s not the actual dying part, it’s the after that is so terrifying. I don’t know if [...]

I posted “My Life” yesterday. Well… to be fair I posted it a few hours ago. Since then I have done nothing but think and think and think… so now I feel the urge to write again. Today I have NO energy. I’ve never felt this numb. It is part of depression… and it is [...]

I hate having to lie to everyone just so I won’t get sent away. It’s getting ridiculous and I’m tired of it. The anti depressant meds make me super suicidal but I can’t tell anyone that because if I feel suicidal then they think I’m going to do it so I have to go to [...]

i could sit here and say how i fake being happy to impress people, but i gave up on that. my old friends say they’re “sick” of me being depressed. well guess what so called friends…im sick of it too bitches. i dont wanna feel like this, i dont wanna feel at all. just shoot [...]

It’s GOT to STOP!! No more picking on me No more fighting with me No more of this where I do everything right and watch it fail anyway No more putting me in the worst possible position No more of this “You always LOSE!” NO MORE!! I don’t want your damn pity I don’t want [...]

Okay… so. I guess all my life I’ve been unhappy. I’ve always been the quiet kid, the one who just gets on with it. I’m now 18… since I was 13 I’ve always thought to myself, in the back of my mind: ‘one day I will kill myself.’ This is because I guess I am [...]

I have suffered from schizophrenia for as long as i can remember. First it started off with hearing a voice scream my name so loud i thought my eardrums would burst. Then it slowly progressed to visual hallucinations, i started to see shadowy masses that were in the shape of a person. Then a few [...]

Hello, all. I’m back to write again. So I reached out and found some resources. I was diagnosed with borderline personality disorder earlier this year. I had hallucinations as a child that established my black and white thinking. I never knew what the hallucinations meant, until recently. It all makes sense now. Somehow my brain [...]