I have been feeling very low over the past few weeks. The emptiness in me growing.  My fatigue worsens – as it is not physical but in my mind.  I feel all of my age and several more.  I am isolating myself from family and acquaintances. Can’t claim to have friends and don’t think I have [...]

Today, again I feel endless. It’s as if I am stuck in a jar and there is no way to escape. I stare catatonic into space and feel my body crushing. I can’t cry anymore..I am too sad. I rock back and forth and hyperventilate. The loss is so palpable that I cannot bear it. [...]

Let’s pretend that nothing happened, That the world is right, That these marks arnt from that belt in your hands, That tears arnt more common than rain. Let’s pretend I’m okay, The this blood isn’t mine, Isn’t real. That this blade is for cutting clothes, Not me. That these bruises and burns dont need to [...]

Suicide(v)-The deliberate taking of ones own life.  I sit in the shadows hoping for someone to notice me. Hoping that someone will see the girl whose world spins all too fast. My so called best friends watch me and see the darkness that haunts me, they sit back as i crawl deeper into my shell. [...]

i hate this world and the people in it……. i try to do everything honestly and end up on the loosing side………. or get misinterpreted by others……. even my luck betrays me all the time…… but i want to see till the end and how unforgiving life can be……

Everyday. It is the same monotonous cycle. Over and over again; a repetitive pounding like a drum beating holes into an already bruised mind. I’ve been working on it. For weeks now, I have been writing and re-writing a suicide note in my head. So far I only have seven lines. Seven lines of what [...]

Those of you who need help/advice/or someone to talk to. My email is here. DCFAA1992@hotmail.com. I will do everything I can to help you make sense of somethings and to be able to be more at terms with what is going. Good luck, and hope to hear from you. I will check my email every [...]

…….. is to tell you the lies.

Days started to finally have meaning. With a job and two friends to talk to everyday, everything is ok. For now. My parents are fighting all the time but thankfully the car is getting me out, but the thing that pisses me off the most is the shit I find out about my own family. [...]

What kind of world has been created? It is the exact opposite of the stupid hedonistic Utopias that the old reformers imagined. A world of fear and treachery and torment, a world of trampling and being trampled upon, a world which will grow not less but more merciless as it refines itself. Progress in our [...]