I’ve read blogs, poetry, articles, posts and responses on various forums, and it has only shown me that most people don’t have a clue about real depression or suffering. If I am fortunate enough to find a post or something that relates, it becomes swamped with messages of (non) advice that deepen the pain even further. [...]

The English teacher told me that there were 26 letters and his favorite letter is P!

Can anyone help me to find out how I can blow myself up? This is a serious question. I have tried to kill myself by suffocation and overdose, but they haven’t worked (obviously) and it’s horrible. I want a quick and absolutely surefire way to kill myself. I wont do it near anybody, I will [...]

Life is like queuing to go on the rides at Alton Towers. You don’t want to be queuing do you?  You want to be on the rides!

It started with a downer… then to driving and cherry cherry icee to 99 cents of gooey caramel and apple thank you one dollar treats where to now? who cares? we have our beats and whispering sometimes shouting in excitement windows hey! look! A 24 hour chain coffe joint! one that’s name resembles a marriage [...]

Don’t look down the tube, it will haunt you forever. Keep your fingers crossed

Yesterday my psychologist suggested to me that I am “addicted to suicidal thinking”. We did not get around to fully explore this, but I would like to post the question if this resonates with anybody. If I understand this right, it’s a “process addiction”, that is: an addiction not to a substance, but to an [...]

I cannot see you; I must be blind. I cannot hear you; I must be deaf. I cannot smell you; I have no nose. I cannot touch you; I have no hands. I cannot taste you; I have no tongue. I cannot understand you; I must be mad. I am mad. I wrote this 10 [...]

Ever since I can remember I have been working to achieve a particular career goal. Recently, because of some stupid mistakes I have made this career is now no longer possible. I wish I knew how to quanitfy the amount of time, money, energy and effort I have wasted on this goal. I cannot imagine [...]

Ever since I remember I have been looked at like something you use and then throw again when u don’t need it. When people need something from me they pretent to like me and i believe them like an idiot, after they’re done with me nobody cares anymore. Even my parents have always made me [...]