Archive for October, 2010

I’m just tired of life

Sunday, October 31st, 2010

I’ve had a rough life, I’d say. I’m only a college sophomore, but I feel like I’ve been through enough and I don’t want to try anymore. My dad was abusive my entire childhood. He called me awful names that resulted in me having absolutely zero self-confidence nowadays, yelled at me for absolutely nothing, criticized [...]

Broken …

Sunday, October 31st, 2010

Her eyes open and she sees the world for the first time. Flowers in bloom, children laughing – she is in a foreign place. Spinning around; lost in confusion. Beauty unfolds before her. Her heart soars as she reaches to the sun. Darkness suddenly washes over her as the fear sets in. Her head in [...]

I Am Bi Polar & schizophrenic

Sunday, October 31st, 2010

i am bi polar and also  schizophrenic. I don’t know how long i have been Bi Polar But i have been Schizophrenic  sense i was 4, And now i Am Almost 15. My mom has the same Disorders. But i have had it longer than she has. She got Bi Polar When my Step father [...]

A different philosophy wants death.

Sunday, October 31st, 2010

Hi, firstly this is no my first language, so I’ll may have mistakes, anyway; I’m feeling suicidal right now, but sadly I feel stupid trying to suicide, first thing: I have a very good life, and second thing: I don’t want to; so what I think that’s because I’m alone;but I have a lot of [...]

Will these scars ever go away?

Sunday, October 31st, 2010

SCARS

Suicide

Sunday, October 31st, 2010

DON’T DO IT! Call 1-800-SUICIDE IMMEDIATELY if you can’t afford counseling. Suicide is not a romantic thing to do. You do have choices and things can get better. I’ve had lifelong depression which finally I have found the cause of and the reasons behind what happens to the brain. Get into therapy, tell someone how [...]

Trivial

Sunday, October 31st, 2010

everything seems trivial. My job, my life, my relationships, I feel like it’s all meaningless and trivial. I’m an excellent faker, at enjoying myself and being happy. What I really want to do is go and slit my wrists open again, hurt myself, end this empty life that I know isn’t going anywhere joyful. A [...]

All those with thoughts of suicide

Saturday, October 30th, 2010

Please take a look on the forum ” Surviving Suicide” Reach out to someone and you’ll find out just how much people care about u. Often people aren’t aware of the dark place u are in. To lose someone to suicide is the most shattering, thing I have ever had to go through. The grief [...]

This masochistic heart…

Saturday, October 30th, 2010

Okay… so not only am i new at this but i’ve never told anyone either. I dont really know how to say everything i feel i need to say so if it comes out weird please dont judge me. This probably isnt even what any of you want to hear but if i dont get [...]

Lonely

Saturday, October 30th, 2010

I hate who I am. I have no friends. The only people that care about me is my family. The “friends” I have will say hi to me sometimes and what not, but im always by myself. Nobody wants to hang out with me. I’ll admit I am shy sometimes. I just hate who I [...]