I tried commiting scuicide and i still want to, my fucking best freind that i loved talked me out of it, so i promised her i would never do it. So, i started cutting myself and she told me she was cring becuz of it, i would never live with  myself if i made my bestest freind cry so i stopped that to. I didnt have a computer at the time so it was hard for us to combersate, so all i wanted for christmas was a little netbook so i can talk to her, it was just for her. I hate going on computers most of the time becuz im such a geek wen it comes to them. So all i got for christmas was a computer, that was the happiest day of my life becuz now i can talk to her. So that day when she got on i started talking to her right away. wer always saying we love each other, but on that day wen i told her i loved her she sent me this http://twitpic.com/3lrhzb ill never forget those word cuz that was the last conversation we had, and now shes ignoring me. I promised her that i would never let her go and she promised to. well she let me go. should i keep that promise, should i keep any promises she made me? and no i cant let her go cuz theres only one personality that fits mine and thats the one that i have, well had now its gone. 12/16/10 – Preasent ill never forget thhat date, that date was the first time i met her, aka the happiest day of my life. now all i want to do is have her make one small promise to me, but she wont listen. She says im using her to make me happy, but i dont use her, shes probably not even gonna read this becuz she removed me from everything she uses (i.e. Facebook, email, twitter so i have to tell one of her friends to post this URL on her wall maybe she will see threw and i wont have to go threw this, If u r reading this all the way threw Cora, i love u, and thatll never change, plz tell me if u read this cuz tears are already running down my face. im not mad at you, im just pissed that u dont belive in me. But until u reply  im still scuicidal. it kills me too say these word. Love, Mahnoodle TFB