Have you ever loved somebody like with all your strength? like Eminem said:
“Have you ever loved someone so much, you’d give an arm for?
Not the expression, no, literally give an arm for?”
But what happens when the person who you love leaves you? Can you start all over again? Like erase everything from your mind and say “ok I’ll meet someone else”. I don’t, I was supposed to be happily married with the love of my life and then she left me… the thing is that it’s been more than 2 years and I can still not recovered, it seems that she left me and she took everything, the sun, the air, the happiness… the life it was inside of me. People says “Hey you just need to go out and find someone else” is it that easy? because I can’t seem to do it, am I too weak for that?
My whole world it’s fucked up now, trust me I’ve been trying to straight this shit up and date and stuff but every time I look around she still there not physically but she is always in my mind, like a ghost, I recently quit from my job because I was not motivated enough but everyone believes I quit because I’m lazy they don’t seem to understand how hard it’s been for me and I know there’s more people with more issues and don’t complaint at all and that makes me think I’m not prepared for life. And my issues with my mum are the cherry on the top sometimes I just want to sleep and never wake up I send all day long thinking about suicide but I’m not determinate enough and that makes me feel pathetic cause I don’t have the balls to do it. I look myself and I hate what I see and no one seems to understand me…
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I understand how you feel, my love left me to and I can’t stop thinking about her and just going around in circles. I don’t know how to the emptiness and no ones seems to get how hard things are and just thinks I’m being stupid but I can’t stop this. If you want to talk you can email me paul_eats_pies@hotmail.com
i understand how u feel. What it’s like to have given everything u can, heart body and soul. Do anything just to see them smile and if u could take all their pain from them so they didn’t have to carry it – u would do it in a heartbeat.
When they are gone…u analyze everything wondering if there was something u could have done better. Although u go thru your day as normally as u can. It’s not ur life anymore all that’s left is an empty shell..that only echos memories of a better time.
As much as people tell you things to comfort u – there are better people out there for you, things happen for a reason. You know in your heart that there will never be another like them.
My point is I understand how people look at u and think that u are lazy or whatever. I know what it’s like to look in the mirror everyday and barely recognize the person there.
I know it’s hard…trust me i know.. but I hope that you can find some strength and a little comfort. So that you can feel a little better each day.
At least know that you are not alone and there are people that understand what it’s like..it’s hell..but we are still here though we do not want to be so maybe there is a little hope left might be hard to find but I think u can
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IwtcwQwgdsA
There’s always a chance to get your life straight again.
God loves you and always will.
I’m sorry to take so long to reply and I really appreciate your comments it really helps to know that there’s people who can actually understand me instead of judging me I’m new in here so idk how to reply directly to everyone of you.
paul_1991: Thank you I will email you A.S.A.P. so maybe we can talk some more
solange: thank you so much for reading and reply with an honest point of view
ashleyhan1004: I’m sorry I could check the link bcz it’s not available in my country but I’m pretty sure it was a good one 😉 Lately I’ve been distant from God maybe it’s time to get closer or something.
I think I’ve been thinking about how to end this because I’m desperate so it really helps to talk about this things you know it’s some sort of catharsis but it’s gets more difficult sometimes I just think there’s no going back and I got frustrated and do stupid things I just hope one day this can be fix cause I can’t take it anymore :/
You can end this problem by God. He can lift your burdens and i guarantee you if you let God be in your life, you will probably feel like the happiest person on earth.
There’s a girl in the corner
With tear stains on her eyes
From the places she’s wandered
And the shame she can’t hide
She says, “How did I get here?
I’m not who I once was.
And I’m crippled by the fear
That I’ve fallen too far to love”
But don’t you know who you are,
What’s been done for you?
Yeah don’t you know who you are?
You are more than the choices that you’ve made,
You are more than the sum of your past mistakes,
You are more than the problems you create,
You’ve been remade.
Well she tries to believe it
That she’s been given new life
But she can’t shake the feeling
That it’s not true tonight
She knows all the answers
And she’s rehearsed all the lines
And so she’ll try to do better
But then she’s too weak to try
But don’t you know who you are?
You are more than the choices that you’ve made,
You are more than the sum of your past mistakes,
You are more than the problems you create,
You’ve been remade.
You are more than the choices that you’ve made,
You are more than the sum of your past mistakes,
You are more than the problems you create,
You’ve been remade.
‘Cause this is not about what you’ve done,
But what’s been done for you.
This is not about where you’ve been,
But where your brokenness brings you to
This is not about what you feel,
But what He felt to forgive you,
And what He felt to make you loved.
You are more than the choices that you’ve made,
You are more than the sum of your past mistakes,
You are more than the problems you create,
You’ve been remade.
You are more than the choices that you’ve made,
You are more than the sum of your past mistakes,
You are more than the problems you create,
You’ve been remade.
You’ve been remade
You’ve been remade.
You’ve been remade.
You’ve been remade.