I don’t know why, but lately I’ve been obsessed with death. I’ve been obsessed about everything related to death. I’m obsessed on how people die slowly with pain and all those stuff. It all started when I was in a fight with my parents. and now I realize how shitty my life is. I have friends who back-stabs me whenever I’m not around. I don’t smile at all. I only smile when I’m watching shows. but I never smile when people are around. I find the whole world “disgusting” . I want to commit suicide badly but I can’t. there is a part in me saying that it’s scary. I’m starting not to eat anything. I don’t know why.. but I wanted to suffer.. Right now I’m planning on killing myself on the day of my birthday. Killing myself would be a present for me.. But I’m scared of killing myself. I don’t fucking care about family anymore. I can say that they don’t care about me either. I’m also cutting myself.. I want to know if there is still a reason to live.. If there is, please just give me even one reason.. if none, then should I commit suicide?
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I am also scared to kill myself. I wish I could give you a reason to live for but that reason is different for each person. If you haven’t found that reason, don’t give up. It is there. You just have to wait, even though it may be painful.
. I don’t know . I’m not an outcast or whatsoever . But I don’t have anybody who really cares 😐
But someone will care about you one day. Someone will love you for who you are, flaws and all. And when that day comes, you will know what happiness is all about. For as depressed as I am and on the edge of destroying myself, I still have hope for other people, including you.
thank you. its nice to know that. thank you so much..
i want to die but im really afraid to kill myself or even hurt myself.. i dont hve someone to ask to kill me and i think they wouldnt.
Alright listen, you might read this and throw it off as b.s since its not a comment saying how much i wish i would die too. I made an account just to write to you.. I am a 20 years old girl who has been with more than tough times, i was diagnosed with some rare disease at the age of 9 and have to live with it more than half of my life.. last year i had the biggest curiosity for suicide i was intrigued to know what was the last straw when was it that a human decided “holy shit i wana fucking kill myself” because no matter how shitty your life is NO ONE deserves you to kill yourself over them FUCK THE WORLD. Look believe me this is so cliche but things WILL get better. Killing yourself is not worth it. Not because “people will miss you” but because that is the most selfish thing you can do. Want a friend? dude ADD me! in anything i have skype, email, aim, facebook, twitter, bbm w.e the hell you want lol im atheist so i wont be showering you with religion b.s just a friend, i promise if you stay alive, some one in the world WILL make you smile!
Guys, wtf are you fucking crazy? What do you think is going to happen when you die? Hey the atheist girl, if you are an atheist why would you even think about killing yourself? *****, when you die, you are dead. That’s it, there is no point to die. I don’t give a fuck about my parents either, BUT I WON”T FUCKING KILL MYSELF!!! Fucking chill, if you really suck at social life, find a game you can play at your free time, find a hobbie or a sport, and you won’t have time to think about it. You welcome motheruf**kers.
If i find out that you killed yourself, i will find your tomb and i will f*cking pee on it and shit on it, cuz it is not that bad to think about it once in 20 years, but if you do it, you are dumb nig.
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