Last night well yea the title says it all and now im seriously depressed.I feel dirty.It started out as a normal day watched a couple of movies and stuff.My younger sisters went to bed so it was me,him and the second oldest cuz it wasn’t her bed time yet (my mom was in manhatten for wedding stuff my uncles getting married)So my sister puts on a zombie movie and i really didn’t want to watch that so my “step”dad was all like he was going to the room and whoever wanted to join him can go so im like ok cuz i wanna play my D.S and i was bored as hell anyway.I get in the room everythings normal until he starts rubbing against me and im just thinking great again because this isn’t the first time he’s rubbed against me so i was expecting something like this to happen eventually i mean it always does but i didn’t hink it would happen this soon.Ok ive had alot of experience with sexual abuse/incest and all that stuff so i kinda knew what was gonna happen but ive never been molested by an older guy i mean he’s 23 wich ment he was experienced i mean the highest ive gotten was 15 yrs old that’s it.Back tot he topic at hand…so he goes to my privates and maybe your defence mechanism is WAY diffrent then mine but mine is to stay quiet and put on an expretionless face resulting in distraction as the questions everyone thinks in this siyuation plague my mind.My sister said that she was hungry so he had to stop and i felt so relieved.I sat up because i was laying on my tummy but he came back really quick so i couldn’t escape so i as still playing my video game(thank god it was there it was my only distraction)He kept on calling me and asking me why was i sitting like that i tried very hard to block him out of my mind but eventually i gave in and the whole thing started again since crying isn’t my thing i didn’t cry at all.My defense mechanism kicked it and i almost passed out 3 times I was terified though thinking that he might rape me(it’s gonna happen sooner or later) so i forced myself not to pass out.Thank god it was my sisters bed time 9:00 pm so he had to get up to tell her to go to bed.I can’t believe im saying this but homework saved me…Once he left i put my pants on got my social studies textboo and did a whole months worth of make-up homework that was my excuse to get free.Thank god for my acting skills cuz my mom got home 10 minutes later and i acted the same way i always do around the bastard and i felt bad for my mom bacause after he just finished touching me he put his dirty hands on my mom.Im scared to go home cuz when i got home from school my mom wasn’t there i just hope he doesn’t touch the little ones they don’t need to go through this yet.The bad thing was it was Sunday night day before school so when i woke up i was all normal and stuff but once i entered the school i just went into full depression after effects i guess everytime i tried to stand up i couldn’t because it made my tummy churn i felt reallty sick i was so disgusted with myself.Im not letting this experience bring my self-esteem down im gonna use it to somehow make it bigger…somehow i don’t know how yet…I hope things really do happen for a reason cuz if it didn’t i’d really be dead by now.Well im definatly not planning to tell my mom because i never told her about the other times ive been molested why should i start now.Wish me luck!
                                           Sincerely,
                                                    Silent
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You have to tell someone. Even if you don’t want to. The only way to avoid if from ever happening again and to make sure that it never happens to your siblings you have to tell. If not for yourself, think of your siblings. You need to protect them and yourself by telling.
Uncalled for for a man his age to act like that. You don’t deserve that kind of shit from him.
You have to talk to your mom about it. I’m serious. If not your mom, call the police so he can get arrested. Don’t let yourself get molested and touched like that unless it’s with someone you love and you want that. The longer you wait, the more miserable you’ll be. Tell your mom or call the police or tell your sisters about it. Don’t wait until he rapes you and it becomes too late and you regret it for the rest of your life. It’ll be too late then. Do something before it comes to that. Tell your mom. Tell your older sister. Tell the school. Tell the police. Soon. As soon as you can. After reading all this.
You have to tell him to stop, otherwise he is going to think it is ok and that you accept it. You are under the age of 18 so you are well protected under the law and you will be saving your sisters from any harm. Tell your Mom, before it gets worse, call the police make a statement get in on Paper, that way its documented….No one deserves to go through this, Please tell someone!!!!
): you need to tell someone, call the police tell your mom, something, anything… he has no right to act so…disgusting… if you won’t tell for yourself, then do it for your sisters…
i agree you need to tell someone
sorry t say but i think i will destroy your self-esteem
let people help you thats how you get a better self-esteem
my mother was molested and she never told a sole and now shes dead
the meomorys will kill you (harsh to say but true
and if you need someone to talk to you can talk to me
You have got to get this man out of the house. Tell someone at school, social services etcc..maybe telling your mum out right is hard but tell someone that can take over the situation. This man is dangerous and you want him out of the house asap!
I agree with the above posts. You need to tell someone like the police, or a teacher, family friend, any adult really.
What he is doing is completely wrong and one of the worst things to happen to you and your sisters. Don’t wait till it happens again. Don’t give him a chance to ruin your lives or your sisters. Speak up, for your own sake and for theirs. Please, don’t keep this hidden away.
It might seem normal but it isn’t. Not everyone goes through this, and nobody should have to. But speak up – people WILL help you and you can deal with this and it will get better.
I’m guessing your mum doesn’t know – you should tell her so she can get rid of that freak she calls her boyfriend. If she doesn’t do anything about it, tell someone else.
Let us know how it goes ok? Loads of people here to support you through it!
You should tell your mother. If your mother does not permanently end her relationship with him, then tell your counselor at school or call the police.
I would hope that your mother would not want to continue her relationship with him once she knows what kind of person he is.
You need to tell someone about what happened. No excuses.