A couple days ago my ex girlfriend dumped me. She only wanted to be friends. I just want someone out there to hold, hug, kiss, talk to and LOVE. I’ve been rejected by about 4 girls so far and I have no hope of finding someone else. Just ending it all would be so good. It would be so good to just sleep forever and not wake up one day. I am just scared of going to hell. Well staying alive and feeling depressed is pretty much the same thing so why wait? I don’t eat or sleep good so everything is getting worse. I […]
April 2011
Hug me, kiss me goodnight, tell me you love me – and let me sleep forever.
I wish my love were a drug
so addicted you would be.
Begging for my kisses
kneeling at my feet.
Quivering as i grant you more
youd only reach out seeking me.
i think my only purpose in this lifetime is to be used up and thrown away like a rag doll. that’s all i’ve been treated like my whole life.
maybe someday someone will want me as a collector’s item
All i wanted was someone to care, to WANT to be with me and have me as theirs. That was all i ever asked for. I have so much to offer and give, yet i have nothing to receive. I’m done with being the one who keeps fighting for a lost cause. Sometimes I am happy and distracted, but only in public. Once the door shuts I’m alone. Completely and pathetically alone. Why doesn’t someone want me? I’m beautiful, happy (sometimes), optimistic (through out the day), passionate, and accepting. Â I keep telling myself to give it more time, eventually I’ll stumble upon someone. Â But nothing […]
well i’ve had enough i gave it 0ne last chance but now i realize my life will never change. it’s time to except the truth and just give up. i will never be happy. it’s time for me to go thankyou to everyone who cared and tried to help. but it was just too late. goodbye…..
Took me a long time, but I perfected my suicide method. The success rate is 99.9%. I left .1% off just because there could always be errors in anything. It’s a really painful, yet accessible method of dying. The pain should only last about 3-5 minutes at most. I was just so proud of myself that I had to brag about it a bit here.
That being said, my life got worse. It’s still getting worse each day. I find myself more alone and desolate each day. The loneliness in my heart has sunk deep into my soul. The depression that has strangled me has tightened its grip. […]