When you are depressed, you don’t get better it’s there forever.
When you cut, you feel better.
You’re suicidal, you see death in every day places, jump in front of a car, a train, a bus, off a bridge, drown yourself in a bath, take a knife and bleed out, electrocute yourself, drive as fast as you can and crash, hang yourself. That bridge is high enough, that rope is strong enough, that bus is fast enough.
You’re waiting for the right date, because your fears hold you back.
You are scared of, life after death, failure in your attempt, the grief you will cause, […]
April 2011
Hello to anyone reading this. My name is Bran, and this is my story.
Back in December of 2008 I attempted to commit suicide by overdosing. Obviously, I failed. Â A month later, my uncle passed away in a boating accident. I felt like I was being punished for what I was trying to do.
Lots of things happened in between. Quite a few bad ones, actually. I won’t get into it here.
Two months ago, my grandfather passed away. I really can’t live without him. Every day is such a struggle and I have no clue what to do. I am looking at suicide as the answer from […]
When he thinks back to before his depression, it really does go all hazy. Was he ever happy? Was it just a dream? It really does seem that way. He litterally cannot remember how to feel happiness anymore. He can’t get that smile that says “I’m happy without a care in the world” anymore, He’s lost it.
When he thinks back to happy memories, it actually gives him a headache. Just because he cannot remember how to feel that joy, that happiness. How is he supposed to get back to something he doesn’t know how to feel anymore?
Did all of those things really happen to him? Was he in love with the […]
I want to be there for the people who don’t have anyone. Please… I WANT to help you. Feel free to e-mail
me or comment. kooky kasey11 @aol .com
Recently around last year, my boyfriend cheated on me with his ex-girlfriend, got her “pregnant” so she says… but then he chose me, and she mysteriously had a miscarriage.. he lied, badly to me, he mentally and emotionally abused me during that time. It affected me so bad.. I’ve always had problems with depression before but this was a terrible new low.. it’s been over 9 months since that happen.. we’re still together. But I changed, something snapped in my head, I’m paranoid. aside from that is just a story to share, I feel like I’ve fallen into a relapse I was “managing”. No one […]
I just walked to the chippy, by myself, by choice.
That’s a huge accomplishment for me.
When you were young & your heart was a open book you used to say let & let live you know you did. you know you did You know you did. But in this ever changing world that we live in. Give it a try live & let die
What do you consider the worst feeling in the world? Personally, I would say loneliness. I have a friend who thinks anger is the worst, though I disagree–I would prefer anger over loneliness, or exhaustion, or even numbness.
But, what would you say is the worst emotion to deal with?
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 So now I’m really broken.
One of my ex’s/best friends is almost dead, but he’s still clinging to life on life support.
I realize I still kinda like him.
But then I have two other guys that like me, one of them is his foster brother.
I’m aware I probably sound like a conceided ***** but honestly,
not this many guys have liked me before, I have shown a picture of myself on one of my older posts,
and I’m told I’m attractive even though I personally don’t think I am. I’m gonna add a picture for those of you to see.
I’m also very aware I shouldn’t be advertising myself but […]
Comforting myself with the illusion
That I could ever make a difference.
Trying to write myself a lullaby of
Self-proclaimed self-importance.
Fuck it.
Officially migrated into my room. The living room wasn’t as safe as I thought. Now my mom has a habit of opening the living room door and standing there demanding and critisising. 🙂
Oh well, my rooms good enough, don’t watch TV anymore anyway. I live on my laptop.
god i dont know what to do anymore. i try so hard to make everyone happy but it seems like the only person i can make happy is hailey wow that not a big accomplishment at all she 2 i can smile at her and shes happy but my sisters mad at me so i cant see hailey for awhile. i try my best to make good grades and be the best person i can be i try to be happy and pull myself from depression but it just not working i cant even stand to look at myself anymore im just so disgusted. im […]
Hello.
I’m coping with depression. I started to see someone about it and I’m currently waiting to see her today. I feel like things are pretty much impossible. Me being my usual pessimistic self believes that I will not find happiness. I have someone who really loves me, but that doesn’t seem to be enough. I used to think that maybe if I had someone who loves me I would feel a little better about myself and about my life.
This is a question for all of you.
If your friend is a cutter, and so are you, would it be best to: let your friend cut and if they need some more blades, give them some, or try to get your friend to stop even though you have the slightest idea that they will stop..??
I keep seeing the attack over and over in my head.
It was just supposed to be a normal walk home. She had done it over and over before without anything going wrong, but this time something did go wrong, VERY WRONG.
She was almost home, I bet she could see out front door, was humming one of her favorite tunes maybe. Eliza has always been the type to randomly sing out words she makes up on her own, she kept telling me she wanted to be like me someday, write stories and poems and change the world. I don’t doubt she could’ve done it.
That’s when the […]
It’s the question I always end up asking myself when I’m feeling this way: What would it take – what would you have to have, what would have to happen, what about you or your life would have to change – to make you want to be present in your life again, at least to the extent that you wouldn’t think about checking out? I’m not talking something grand and glorious (winning the lottery, discovering your “true purpose in life,” finding your soulmate, etc.), or what you would need to make you truly happy forever and ever, but rather the minimum thing it would take […]
You bring me so low, and then you raise me 10 million miles into the sky, and then you let me fall. Fall back down harder and faster. It hurts, and I cant do it. Eventually, I’ll run when you try to raise me up. It only leads to more heartache.
Burnt myself again. Cryed.
Relapseing.
I don’t care. I want it all to end. Tired, so tired.
Ema Hathaway should still be signing out this year. I hope.
How come I can see your whole life story and tell when you’re are lieing in your eyes,
But you can’t see my one emotion or tell when I’m lieing in mine?
I don’t know what to do anymore, I seriously need help. I can’t stop cutting, it’s all I ever think about even when I think of everything else it always comes back to my razor.
Things are so shit right now, the men who tried to groom me for so long are finally free and out of prison. One lives in my road, I’m so scared I don’t know what to do. I know they’re gonna come back for me. They promised this before they went inside. What do I do? :'(
So much shit is happening right now, I know others have it so much […]