hey all.. been dealing with grief for a while now and i’m failing. i don’t even know how long the process is supposed to take. i suppose it’s different for everyone. but i can’t help thinking that some people get to this point and don’t feel like this. i feel like i’m getting worse, not better. i no longer function. i don’t even know where my shoes are i haven’t been out of the house in so long. i’ve just slowly broken down into this mess. i don’t talk to people, i don’t go anywhere. the pain is just not lessening. i typed in suicide […]
April 2011
So im still having trouble with the whole ex boyfriend situation..we got in a huge fight yesterday…and now hes telling me he loves me..hes putting me in even more pain noww..i cant take it anymoree…his name is carved into my legg soo i will never forget about him…and now my families giving me a hard time about everything thats going on. everythings just telling me to kill myself…my friends my family everything..i cant take this pain much longer. i try to be happy and show everyone that i am. but its really all a lie…
I’m not gonna say the whole bad things. I’m going to sumerrize my life. Now before I start, I’m a terrible speller, und I’m sorry about that.
I was 12, living in Germany, happy as can be. ‘Til October 21 201o. That was the day, of the accident, the accident. Were my brother Edwen und sister Becca, Mother und Father died in a car accident. I am the only survivor. I moved here in America when I was adopted to this family. But this family is poor, I have 2 siblings. Maxwell, und Emma. Were on foodstamps, were in so much shit right now. When I first moved […]
Just wondering is anyone like an empath on here i mean i think im one but im not really sure thats why i need help cuz i wanna find out if it might be possible that im an empath or something like that so yea if u are one or you kinda wanna help me figure this out just email me or something at animecat9@aol.com
Ok needless to say I’m more than ready to go. Only thing that’d really bother me is I have never had sex with another girl before ever. I’ve never really been with a girl that long either. The most I’ve ever done was kiss one long ago. Hell I’ve never even done anything like cybering or sending pictures or a webcam. I know it sounds petty and it probably sounds selfish but it really does bother me. Telling me “oh its no a big deal, don’t worry, etc etc” doesn’t make it better. Ok I’m done with my rant… I need to go.
Hey guys havent been here in a looooooooooooooooong time so i just wanna say welcome newcomers and R.I.P for the already gone.Ok back to bussiness,i wanna help you guys out because i understand the pain and suffering you all might be going through and im being serious about this.I am not a shrink or if anyone is concerned a blood sucker and i am deffinitally not one of your parents in disguise.I just wanna help if anybody wants to talk either let loose and tell me your problems or concerns and i will try to give you the best advice i possibly can or if […]
Have they both exited?
So I’m new here. Finally got the courage to actually post something. I go to a Catholic school. I have a loving family. I have good friends. I am good at the piano, basketball, and track. I am smart. I am what you call the “good, perfect girl”. I believe in God. I want to kill myself. I have those feelings that everyone else here has. The alone feeling, the pain, the regret, the guilt. I am only 14. But ” have been thinking this way and wanting this since the 7th grade. I have chosen my death date. I just don’t know if I […]
i am watching tinkerbell
I been surfin the web and came across this site. I got depression
after my show ended. So if any of you want to talk i will not judge you. I found a site for depression and was band for life just cause i was talkin about the best suicide method’s and there kick me off it. What’s that all about. Anyway survival is hard. Death is a calling
I posted a few days ago. Thanks everyone for you comments.
I am doing a little better. Still not sleeping well.
I had been doing pretty well a few days ago. And I was feeling very positive. Its funny, on the outside I have many good things. However, when I talked about being chopped down i am referring to work. About 2 years ago, I was almost fired. I was having a lot of trouble concentrating and doing anything at work. I was on Paxil. It certainly took the depression away, but I also did […]
I’ll be honest I’m suicidal, BUT I don’t wanna die, I’m lonely, and good memories seem like bad memories, can’t sleep, but something deep inside of me says hang on just a little bit longer, I’m a 30 year old male who cuts himself if wanna talk I will listen
Very informative blog. Thanks for taking the time to share your view with us
I hate myself so much, I have done horrible things, and even though I never meant to hurt anyone it has. I feel so detached from this world and I just want everything to just disappear, I can’t get the motivation to kill myself because honestly I’m so afraid, but I don’t want to even exist anymore, I’ve been shutting myself out constantly, moving myself away because I feel like I don’t deserve to be loved in any discernible way.
I’m hopeless, I feel like everything has turned dark and it gets darker and darker every single god damn day. I started cutting again after a year of not […]
so ummm… hung out with Best Friend, went with BF and people to play kickball.. I can’t play for crap, Kickball became dodge ball, so that was definitely out of the question for me. um, didn’t do much until I finished eating to do some exercises for the upcoming competition for wrestling company… so yeah…
http://suicideproject.org/2011/04/day-ten-strike-report/ (has all the other links thus far).
The only thing that I don’t like about suicide is that I’m going to die alone. Â I lived alone and I’m going to die alone. Â I never wanted to be alone, but it’s either I continue to be alive and alone, or die and never have to deal with being alive and alone again. Â I like the second option better.
If I Die Today All The Pain Will Go Away, If I Die Tommorow One More Day Of Sorrow
I just had this overwhelming desire to go and hang myself, I wanted to die so badly. It’s almost like I’ve been divided in two and part of me wants to end it all now, there is nothing to live for and I could never care about anything or anyone. And the other half wants to live and has excepted the fact that I can’t love people and that I should still live just so I can do the few things that make me happy. But right now the living side is losing. Maybe if make a failed attempt, I can get help…… Unlikely, I […]
I live life day to day ive always been the one to be happy and stay strong for others and be a good friend. I hold in my anger i hold in my thoughts and feelings becasue i fell like theirs not to many that understand i know its bad for the mental state but its the best way for me to cope and deal with things in my life ive had people that have treated my like crap and talked shit but still i say the same becasue its not worth the fight and the argument im learning to grow and speak my mind […]
So ive been having a lot of trouble with my ex bf weve been on and off for about 4 months. ive been having a lot of suicide thoughts because of all of this. hes been messing around with my head. ive been trying to make it through everything but i just havent been able to do it. im really close to just sayin my last goodbyes a doing it. my friend died just a lil over a month ago so maybe i can meet him…im soo inlove with him that if im not with him life isnt worth it.
This is my last attempt at “fixing” my manic depression. Has anyone had any experience with it?