May 31st, 2011by karate_dad
Life has been good to me in many ways and for the most part, I have really enjoyed my life and I am thankful for it. I rejoiced and thanked God when I could participate in physical activity: I enjoyed riding my bicycle, hiking and I was a good, I mean really good martial artist. In almost 35 years of working (post college) I have only had one week without income and my income has been by and large at least 2-3 times the average wage.Â I have healthy children and 3/4 dozen grand kids. I have had the enjoyment or leaning many things, giving charitably and blessing those in need.
But, I can see life coming to an end, as it must for all of us. I am starting to suffer the infirmities of older age: I can no longer get my wind to hike up the mountains, I have painful sciatica and peripheral neuropathy: and much of the time all I can think about is the burning pain in my feet.Â I will search for a medicinal answer to relieve the conditions as I LOVE life when I am healthy and physically fit: But should I not find an answer, I am going to take my own life. The approach would be something painless like a bleed-out (just fall asleep from the blood loss) and suffocation by helium inhalation or similar means.
My family will get my life insurance (the policies expire in 7 years) and I will be relieved of the physical pain and limitations that come with old age. Should I wait until my “natural” expiration, the policies will probably be expired and I will most likely be too physically infirm to even walk. I don’t know when that will occur, but I would guess within the next 5-6 years. I would expect that taking my own life would only shorten my life by 15 years or so…..and they are 15 year I do not wish to endure
Many folks value life for its own sake: I do not. being old, infirm and dependent on others is worse than death for me. Â Eventually the neuropathy will lead to lack of coordination and probably the inability to walk.
Thanks for listening guys!