Why won’t God help me.

May 11th, 2011 by extremecenter

I have had trouble with depression since I was about 10. My life though hasn’t been bad and I even have two children. I am divorced but I was in a turbulent marriage. Despite all this, all I want to do is die. I know that sounds selfish since I have 2 kids and then I feel guilty and get more depressed and the cycle continues. I really get angry at God because if suicide is supposed to be such a sin then why is God continuing to let me and others suffer so much when I have done everything, and I mean everything to get better. I don’t want to hurt anyone but why does God let me hurt when God is supposed to be perfect compared to us imperfect humans. If one more person says “but God has a plan.” I will jump off a roof. God can only handle this mountain of pain which I don’t even know where it is coming from. I could go on and on but I really feel that God has abandoned me and I don’t know why. I have given my mustard seed of faith. I give all I have to give as far as faith-it isn’t much but it is all I have. God you can’t say you will go to hell if you commit suicide – if in fact that is what you are saying, yet let people go on in unbearable depression with no end in sight. That is cruel. I can’t wait any longer. It has been almost 40 years !!!!!!!

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8 Responses to “Why won’t God help me.”

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  1. i have a challenge for you…

    everyday devote 1 hour of your day to not do anything. just sit on your couch or your bed or whatever and just listen. dont play music dont play with your phone or computer just sit there. dont talk and try not to even think about anything. just listen and let God speak to you. dont pray, read a bible or anything for this one hour. just listen…

  2. I kind of have this whole theory about God and everything but I don’t wanna write out the whole thing so.. In my opinion God doesn’t have control over everything that’s happening in our lives and he can’t make us feel differently than we already do because we all have free will. We make our own decisions in life just like the people around us do. We can’t always help the feelings we have, but I think that we’re meant to keep trying anyways. I think that this world is as bad as it is and life is as hard as it is to make whatever happens afterwards worthwhile, and we’re all meant to stick it out as a sort of payment for the peace we’ll get once it’s all over with.
    And I don’t believe that a God who is all loving and all knowing would create a hell for his children, or souls that he already knows will end up in hell. It doesn’t make sense. But death can’t be the answer.

  3. we’re all a part of god. He doesn’t exist without us, and we don’t exist without him. So if we keep trying to help ourselves, then god is helping us.

  4. To eternally confused. I think that way about God but I just feel so depleted. Even Jesus’s suffering ended after 3 days and after 40 days. Jesus went to Heaven. I don’t even know what to tell my kids when they ask me about God and heaven when my own faith is so shaken up. I am at the point where only God can help me because I have already done everything I can think of and I have no emotional or mental strength left. And then I get angry because I feel like I am serving a prison sentence for a crime I didn’t commit. The ball is definitely in God’s court. I do pray for everyone who is feeling this way because it is hell and nobody can understand unless you have been through it.

  5. God wants to help us, and restore us into paradise but in an appointed time. I have no ill-will against him its just that I CAN’t WAIT for that time because I’m running out of strength, good thing there’s no such thing as hell because it would defeat God’s love and purpose. I just wanna pass out and enter a blank state of nothingness and oblivion… But for you my dear. God will help you if you try and help yourself, I still pray for inner-calm when I feel like i want to extend my life a bit for the next day.

  6. In my opinon god makes us miserable so we don’t take things for granted. I was depressed and very suicidal. I prayed all the time wondering why i was being put through this. I remember praying asking when ita my time to feel happy and wanting to live. I prayed so hard for my girlfriends grandma to wake up from her coma and to help me get unemployment so i could have money to give my girlfriend a good christmas that she hasn’t had since she was a little girl. Both prayers were answered the next day. All i could do was cry in joy even though is wasn’t for me because they were answered. There will be hope. You can feel so lost, empty, and numb. Cry but tears no longer come out. The prayers might of not been for my benefits but it brought happiness to me. God will bring you yours. Stick it out through your pain because it will come.

  7. i disagree and GOD doesnt have anything to do with it… i think in my opinion that u need to do some soul searching cuz if u gave God ur mind body soul and your spirit HE GOD WOULD BE THERE FOR U ARE U A CHRISTIAN READ REVALATIONS 2 AND PSALMS 7 BEFORE U BRING GOD INTO IITS ALL GODS FAULT ,,,THATS WHY GOD GAVE US FREE WILL AND U NEED TO FIND GOD MY FRIEND …..ILL PRAY FOR U TO NOT BE SO BITTER

  8. i disagree and GOD doesnt have anything to do with it… i think in my opinion that u need to do some soul searching cuz if u gave God ur mind body soul and your spirit HE GOD WOULD BE THERE FOR U ARE U A CHRISTIAN READ REVALATIONS 2 AND PSALMS 7 BEFORE U BRING GOD INTO IITS ALL GODS FAULT ,,,THATS WHY GOD GAVE US FREE WILL AND U NEED TO FIND GOD MY FRIEND …..ILL PRAY FOR U TO NOT BE SO BITTER

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