Hi there. I found this site doing what I guess you could call “suicide research.” I’m 15 and seriously contemplating to kill myself but there are so many things that I’m unsure of.
I plan on overdosing on a combination of stillnox (sleeping pills) and panadol (paracetemol). I have access to both and it seems to be fairly painless… But, being the over-anxious perfectionist I am, I did some research into this and found that it is actually painful to die of liver failure and if I’m not successful, the pain of having my stomach pumped is an issue.
For those who have experienced this: how much does it hurt to have your stomach pumped or suffer from liver failure?
Another thing, do you believe that if you commit suicide you go to hell or some other equivalent?
I was raised catholic and my mother is deeply religious. Sometimes, I feel so confused as to what to do. I feel suicide is the right and only option for me, yet, I’m absolutely terrified of the consequences.
Thanks for taking the time to read this. Also, I would really appreciate some input.