June 30th, 2011by Blinn
I’m having a really hard time living with my family. It’s one of those families that always think that they’re right and you’re wrong, always, with no exceptions. They’re feeding off my misery for god knows what reason. Maybe they get a kick out of it. Maybe it’s because their lives are so boring, dull, and bad, that they have to destroy mine to boost their egos and make them feel better. I’ll give you some insight into how my three sad excuses for family members are:
Mom: An irritable, impatient woman who is a coward. I used to trust her to stick up for me when dad argued with me, but she doesn’t want to get involved because she doesn’t like taking the blame for my problems. She cries crocodile tears when I’m upset, but when she doesn’t want to deal with me, she shoos me away so she can watch Eastenders or play PC games. She has no consideration for my privacy and just walks into my room whenever she wants. I could have something private open and god forbid she sees it.
My sister: A sly, manipulative thief, who leeches off of everyone’s wallets. She gives me the puppy dog eyes whenever she wants something from me, and if I say no, she slams my door shut and curses at me. She treats me like I’m stupid and fleeces dad to have visits back and forth between her little circle of friends. She shows off her bad mouth in front of her friend and in front of mom, and mom just lets her get away with it. If she decides to tease me, I get punished instead of her. She also has the same utter lack of consideration for my privacy and just bursts through the door when she wants to ask me something. She is the ideal example of what the media and shows like iCarly and Drake and Josh can do to young minds. To her, every boy is inferior to a girl and parents and teachers are stupid. These shows should be banned, because they’re corrupting the youth of America and any other country that shows a significant interest in them.
Dad: A self-righteous ruffian who is the biggest hypocrite I have seen in my entire life. He lectures me about anything and everything I do or say, which usually ends in the same old “you’re being disrespectful” or “I’m the father and you’re the child” nonsense. The arguments go on and on and on, and can last anywhere from 30 minutes to 8 hours. I’m not kidding. He’s a tobacco-head and smokes as if it’s one of the daily necessities like food and water. He complains about my health when he’s battling bronchitis and any other health problems he has. The other day while he was going to the hospital while having a cold, on top of having a severe allergic reaction to mixing several different medicines, he took a cigarette out and started puffing away. He looks so pathetic when he smokes his lungs out like that, it’s bad for the rest of us because we have to breathe in that stuff, and he’s so stubborn about it that he has a chip on his shoulder every time we tell him about it. In fact, he treats that chip like a golden shoulder plate. His ego is more inflated than a balloon filled by the lungs of an opera singer. I have an obsessive compulsion to avoid him at all costs. Whenever I see him, I have to get away from him and pray that he doesn’t see me. He downplays anything he says and makes a big performance over anything I say, waving his index finger in my face, which looks as tempting to bite as a freshly-cooked sausage. I’m already showing signs of a grudge that not even mom can ignore. But more than anything, I’m depressed. He and mom together ruined 4 holidays last year, including my 18th birthday, Halloween, Christmas, and New Year’s Eve. Today is my 19th birthday, and nothing has changed. I didn’t even get some sort of celebration because my sister has a dentist appointment today.
I feel like I’m the only decent person in my family. I admit I have problems of my own. I have Asperger’s Syndrome, a bad case of paranoia, I’m very impatient, and I’m a bit ODD (Oppositional Defiant Disorder), but if you look past that, I’m a very friendly guy to be around. I try to be nice and polite as I can, and even as a 19-year-old, my level of language and cursing is far below everyone else in my family. But sometimes even I question myself and ask “why am I such a nice guy? Nobody seems to like that anymore. Is it just me or basic human decency just isn’t trendy and fashionable anymore?” Mankind screwed up somewhere and it smells of broken society and stereotypical beliefs. We’re one of the cruelest species on the Earth, and we’re all just one big barbaric tribe IMO. Those of us who are actually decent enough to care for people like us are thrown out as unorthodox and we end up being rejects as a result.
But there comes a time where we “rejects” band together and form our own society, based on principles and morals that fix what our predecessor broke and twisted all around. We just have to find like-minded people and together, fix the broken world we live in now. This isn’t going to happen overnight, no matter how bad we want it to. But someone, somewhere will change the way we as people think about ourselves and others. But the best we can do right now is hold close what’s dear to us and live through this.
For those of us who care, I wish you the best of luck in your future. For a lot of us, this may be our darkest hour. But if we live through this, nobody can take that from us, no matter how hard they try. If you took the time to read to the end and understand the message I’m giving, then you are already above a lot of the losers in the world today. For those who share the same burden I do and live, you have my respect.
Good luck everyone.