I’ve asked myself this question too many times…How could god let someone trick me for months into thinking they really loved me. How could god let her lie to me and feel joy from making me suffer? How could god convince me that she was the one person in the world who really understood me?How could god let her lie to me for all this time and convince me that i was right to defend her and lose all of my friends doing it? How could god let her fuck him and cheat and lie to me for all this time and tell me she […]
June 2011
i feel some emotions, but not so strong most of the time. every once in awhile i get these rushing emotions: anger, loneliness, confusion, frustration, and overbearing sadness. My way of letting these feelings out is finding a song to express all this shit yeah w/e blah blah heres the fuckin song.
hope whoever heres this is able to allow this song to penetrate the depths of their angst.
why does it feel like i did something wrong. Why wont this feeling go away. Im breaking down inside. I feel like a mess. I dont know what to do with myself anymore. I just want to cry. Or at least drown myself as i planned. Why does God hate me? God what did i do wrong. Everything seems fine but i know its really not v- v. What can i say i dont even know anymore. I dont even know who i am anymore. I just want to leave forever. Im sorry if i have to hurt people for it. I just need […]
How would a “normal” person get rid of this emptiness? You know, a logical person who chooses “healthy” coping mechanisms. Things that aren’t burning or oxycodone or starving. How to they combat loneliness?