I just wanted to say, that there are people out there who have encountered and overcome gay bullying!
http://www.bbc.co.uk/newsbeat/11799817
Anyway god—the cosmic consiuness understand your pain very well. He will except you back home, if this is what you really want. I have a feeling we will meet ourselves on the other side. My own plans are going along just smoothly. My backround is a little different then yours tough;
http://nazret.com/blog/index.php/2009/09/14/ethiopian_children_exploited_by_us_adopt
http://nazret.com/blog/index.php/2010/06/15/ethiopia_man_charged_with_child_sex_abus
I was hoping i could stop you. To try to talk you away from this, because your so YOUNG, and you have most of all a LOVING family…something i NEVER had! I was born dead(not breathing)to begin with. I am only taking back my NATURAL birthright and coming back to my TRUE mother and family, who are no longer a part of this world. My story is different then yours.
Im still hoping you would reconsider this. But…if this is what you want, so be it.
Once you die, you will enter a void. It is “putagory” A “between” place between our “real “material and the spiritual world. Do not be afraid of the darkness. The void is not meant as a punishment. You will be guided towards the love of light, in wich you will reseave a life review. You will unfortunately feel the pain and sorrow of all the people you have left behind. Even if it’s hyppocrite, it cannot be avoided.
Im still confident you wont go through with this, but if you were to actually do it, and if he would actually allow you to enter the light, then please pray for me, remember me and ask him to help me! Remember, god can easily send you back even to a (brain)damaged body(“it’s not your time yet”) Please be caefull, and pray in before hand before trying this. Chooce the method carefully, and once you do it…do not hesitate! Do it without hesitation! Without any kind of emotional trauma or regret! The cosmic law does not treat kindly to those people who “play around with death” You must be ready to crossover! If you do succeed you will not be harmed. God is neither a racist or a gaybasher. Aids was not caused by gays either.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LZs1V8mpcoY
But if this is what you want, i wish you a well trip. Remember;god does not judge! You do!