Idk what a good title for this would be… World’s Greatest Dad (movie)

I hear the heartbeat in my ears and neck. I haven’t choked in a while. Its hard to breathe (but I could be just thinking I am). I’m watching World’s Greatest Dad about a guy who has a hard time with his son. His son calls everything a fag as in gay or bad. His son is really into auto-erotic asphyxiation and he got caught doing it. The sad part, the dad sees him dead because he choked for 2 long. He decides to make it look like a suicide, with a not and him hanging from his closet. Probably to hide the shame that he was masturbating. Sad part is, seeing the father on the ground, next to his son, in the fetal position, bawling his eyes out. Imagine a loved one crying over the death of yourself. I find it saddening, especially the part where I hate my dad so badly, even though he may not be an alcoholic, addict, rapist, just a stupid-ass Jehovah’s Witness. The name of the movie, makes me think of how my dad will never be my greatest dad, which is sad, but still, even imagining him crying over my body is horrible… I hope I can resist the urge to choke out. It is a bad urge now. Rogue Shadow, no such thing. I’m all alone no matter how much I wish he was real… Well, I’d say wish me luck to not choke but I know I will. I haven’t cried myself to sleep in a few months. I guess back to my old habits then, right???