About 2 weeks ago. I just don’t know what to do anymore…I can’t fucking stand it..every fiber of my body is screaming every second of every day. I’m only 23 but my daughter was about a year old and I met her mom way before that, years ago..money is so tight at the moment..I can’t afford any method of suicide that will be even moderately humane. I won’t mention what I’ve chosen since the mods for some reason decide this board has to be “method free”..even though people talk about it every day…anyways..jesus…I wouldn’t wish this kind of pain on my worst enemy.
July 2011
hey folks, am 23yrs old male. i dont like to be social.. coz i hate this sick society..i had many bad experience, i dnt talk with anyone i sit in my dark room…waiting for the right time.. im looking for buddy, if anyone interested plz mail me.. s.tck40@yahoo.com
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i have no motivation
none at all…
my future has been blocked by a cloud of fog
and i cant seee where im going
im so lost i have just given up entirely
but when i think how much my parents gave up to put me through school
and give me a really great education
and ive made nothing of it!
i know how selfish and careless that makes me sound? i feel like i cant even help it
i have dawdled my life away
and now ive made it pretty hard for my self to get even average marks at school
uni looks like a lost cause
plus i have no real talents… people like to […]
If it’s wrong to love you then so let it be
I can’t deny the fact that you complete me
ive been thinking about suicide for months now. I’ve told a few ppl and it seemed to get around the school. So I quit tellen ppl and now a few of them ppl still ask how I am. And the rest don’t care. Ohwell. Some ppl Thot I told ppl just for attention. Which is kinda dumb. I’m not sure if i want to do it still. Everyday it comes to my mind and it just don’t leave… Idk what to do anymore. And im bipolar so That doesnt help any. I’m new to this site. It’s kinda cool. […]
I’ve been having little heart attacks and seizures lately, mostly if I laugh or cry. it freaking hurts my heart, and makes me unable to breathe, I literally have to hold my breath for about a minute so my heart won’t sting in pain. but it still hurts after I start to breathe again. I told my dad and he didn’t believe me, he just told me to go sleep. and my sister (my flesh and blood whom I adore so much, seriously I’m not kidding, I love her to death like a little kid loves his stuffed animal) is pissed at me for no […]
I havent been diagnosed with anything because nobody knows what is going on with me. There is only one person who knows about my cutting, and he thinks I only cut because I want to kill myself.
I have been dreaming of death alot lately, and even had a dream where I was screaming out to my mum because I couldnt breath. I saw my coffin in another dream also.
The guy that knows about my cutting always says that he is always there for me no matter what but when I do need him he is never around or is busy.
I stopped cutting for two […]
wtf is going on how do i modify ??? how do i get my posts to show up :(!!
lol i typed them and there yellow and i have no clue wtf to do!!!
it says approve but i cant get anything to show up?!?! somebody help me lol!!
im refering to comments on other peoples posts by the way lol
They took away my fucking meds!!!! I was going to do once I get my meds. Now I have to wait out. Why does this happen to me!?!?!? What’s wrong with my fucking country??? Can’t someone chose to die in a more graceful and peaceful way??? Fuck,no!! They have to take away my meds. I bet they are happy cuz now I only can jump and I dont wanna jump. My brain will smash and splatter all over, maybe even my eyeball will poke out (heard it happen to someone here), what’s worse maybe I won’t even die. OH gosh, shit,cant they just let us die!??! […]
I haven’t been on the website for a while.
I haven’t done anything for a while.
I’m getting worse.
I hope everyone out there is getting better.
But just to fill you in on what had happened in my life,
Stopped cutting for 3 months, started again, pretty bad cutting too, got caught again.. Lucky me right?, but now.. I’m not eating.. I’m diagnosed with severe depression, & just weird things have been happening, hallucinatiouns, sensing stuff.. Just weird things..
But yeah, thats whats been happening.
I was thinking of some ways that people could get their mind off of suicide/depression, I thought of how I usually do and It’s usually with online games.
These are some games I love to play (don’t laugh)
http://ava.ijji.com/
http://toontown.go.com/
http://florensia.en.alaplaya.net/
That’s mainly what I do… Lol
I’m depressed, have been for a number of years, contemplate suicide almost all the time but have never attempted as I wanna be damn sure I get it right first time.
This site however, its just filled with people writing vaguely depressing amateur poetry or bitching about the fact they don’t have a girlfriend. I don’t have a girlfriend, and have abandoned all hope of getting one, but I don’t feel the need to weep to some anonymous basement dwellers to make myself feel better.
I’m sorry if I come across as cold, callous, or just downright rude, perhaps, its because I am all these things. Nonetheless, […]
i don’t know why i want kill my self!! i just know i have no interest in my own life.i wanna suicide!!!
i think,i’m in depression.i just bored with my life,it’s pain for me! i have some this types of prob;ems which i could not share with any one.now i’m just 18 years bt still i hav no interest in my life.Friends can u say what can i do now.
I HATE MY LIFE.
I cant stand my family. Why the fuck would you want to play some fucking music loud in the moring when people are still sleep. They can play music in their rooms or in the basement. Why do they piss me off so much. One of the reason why i want to die so i dont have to deal with them. Why cant they leave me alone by myself so i can sleep. What happen to my freedom? Thats right it fucking die a long time ago. Thanks alot you guys i totally cant wait to die so i dont have to worry about seeing […]
Any singaporeans? Cant even off myself. What fucking country do we live in? Wanna *****. wanna chat. toopainfultolive12@hotmail.com
My family of course still dunno. I have a inkling i will be sent to hospital if they know. But what do you really feel when they find out? Or is everyone here a secret?
How do you even succeed in making a guy like you? It’s impossible.
I feel hurt. I always end up feeling hurt. I think I’m destined to be a loner. I told him that I want to be with him. And this is after he spent 2 years chasing me. He lost interest almost as quick as I told him that. I don’t feel like shedding tears anymore, I’ve shed enough tears, he’s not worth my tears. If he seriously feels like leaving me, like stop talking to me, like telling me that he doesn’t want to be with me, well then fine. FUCK YOU! I don’t Fucking need […]
The other day I was thinking of trying to kill myself again. So I did what my therapist taught me and searched for help. I found a website that allows you to email a supporter and well get support from them. So I emailed her my story, but the reply was not what i expected. She replied saying, “I’m sorry for the inconvenience but I only support people who have applied to be on my group. If you would like to apply you can. (and gave me a link)” What in the hell is that? I mean if their gonna offer their support…only to people […]