I’m 16 but I always feel like a child. Â I’m really smart and have the intelligence of some people older than me, but I’ve never gotten to do anything that made me feel like a teenager. Â I’ve never had sex, or kissed a girl, because I’ve never had a girlfriend. Â I wish I could do something that would make me feel older. Â Even if its something like smoking pot, if I could do it just once I think I would feel older. Â I feel inexperienced and completely uncomfortable around a lot of other teenagers.
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I feel how you feel. I’m turning 19 in two days but I’ve skipped completely over my teen years. It’s scary. I don’t really have any words of encouragement except for you’re not alone.
I can totally relate. I kissed my first girl at 24. Had girlfriend/sex at 25.
I started going out at night with friends at 22 where everyone else was going at 14. I was always mocked at school. Plus i am ugly.
I felt just like you. But somewhere arround 23/24, something changed. And in 2 years i grew everything i didn’t grew when i was a teenager.
At 29 i had 2 girlfriends! Me, i guy who never had a girl got TWO at the same time. They were totally in love with me too. Felt totally great (well not so much when they discovered but what the hell heheh).
Now at 32, everything is going great. I wanna live till 100.
When i was 16 i wished i was fucking 20. Now i’m 32 i wish i was fucking 16 again. Time passes too fast.
Anyway, bottom line, some people take their time… nothing wrong with that.
@mimi
i feel the same, like I’ve skipped over those years that people like kuaralho wish they could go back to. I’m only 25 but I feel like an over the hill retiree with nothing to live for but the bottle.
you’re definitely not alone isanyonethere. Lost my virginity at 18, first drink at 19, pot at 23 etc. I think it’s the being smart thing that’s holding you back from enjoying your teen years. I was the same way at 16, wise beyond my years but still very much a child. All of my high school acquaintances were the partiers, drug doers, offensive music listeners so their were definitely times when I could have cut loose, but I didn’t. I was/am too smart/timid for my own good and I think that you are too. My advice: find YOUR tribe. I guarantee that there are tons of kids like you that are just kids. There’s nothing wrong with just being a kid. Instead of going to prom, I stayed home and played super smash brothers; it never crossed my mind to go. I wish I’d known that their were other people like me in my own school or else I wouldn’t have been playing alone.
Thanks for all the advice
ps tphg Im already am offensive music listeners
There’s nothing wrong with feeling that way… I’m also 16, and have never done any of that stuff, either. But you know what? I, personally, am glad of it. If I’m going to do things like that, and give away my innocence and childhood, it’s not going to be like snapping my fingers and it’s gone. Someone’s going to have to care enough to work for it. Otherwise, it’s not happening.
All I can say to you is that enjoy what you have, and don’t try to be like the others. You’re you, and if that doesn’t include being an teenager who does drugs, who has sex, who has lots of girlfriends or whatever, more power to you. Happiness like that is fleeting. One day, when you find someone who loves you for you because that’s who you are, not what you did or are willing to do, you might just think that being like a child in a world full of darkness, wasn’t such a bad thing. As a girl, I can say that if we aren’t whores, we tend to go for the guys who haven’t had sex with every girl he can just because everyone was doing it at the time. It may be later in life, but we’ll search for the one who won’t just want sex, or drugs. We’ll want the person inside, problems and all. You’re smart. It’s not that hard to see. Intelligent, beautiful, and wonderful girls are going to see that, once they know you, and they’ll want it. Keep your child-like thng going. It’s wonderful to be like that. I only wish I could have it too.
It doesn’t matter if others think you’re too ‘young’, or not in with ‘the group’. Maybe it’s not the group that’s best for you, that will truly make you happy to be accepted. There’s always a catch. It depends on which group as to what that catch is.
If you ever want to talk, or just vent,
dark_soul_giver@hotmail.com or blackswan1661@gmail.com