My fiancee cheated on me a month ago. He apologized, and I’ve forgiven him. However, the woman with whom he cheated is a friend of both of ours, and she invited both of us to her birthday pool party. I don’t want to be demanding and tell him absolutely not; we’re not going. At the same time, I don’t think I’m ready to watch the two of them hug in swimsuits.
August 2011
Stars see us, feel us, listen to us, they cradle us and blehh idk
Well, first post of mine. I’ve been hesitant and reluctant to become apart of this ‘project’ for reasons I can’t seem to make clear, but none the less here I am writing tonight.
[Side-note: I am pretty computer literate but I find being new to word press or this project very confusing. It shows me everyone’s comments and posts, instead of just the posts I comment on, or responses to my comments. I don’t quite understand this site, but maybe I’ll get there soon.]
I mostly only read posts on this site, picking and choosing which ones to read fully. It’s been comforting in some way I don’t […]
Always wanted to kill myself but I’ve never been able to bring myself to do it. I’ve been thankful for that in the past. I’m 26 and I’ve done okay for myself considering everything but the darkness follows me still. And something like a simple disappointment can throw me right down again. It all seems down hill from here. What can I say it’s all BS.
I feel so alone tonight. I’m really struggling. All I’ve done for the last 5 hours is sit here and cry. There’s something seriously wrong with me.
So it finally all comes down to this, I’m ending everything I once had.
How did I come to this conclusion? Ton’s of misery, sure to other’s I may have the perfect life, but that’s where they’re dead wrong.
Instead of venting about all my pathetic little problems like I usually do, and instead of seeking help in a more medical way, I’m ending what I use to call my life.
I have it all planned out.
Date (of Death): September 19th (My 16th birthday)
Cause: O.D (and if that doesn’t work suffocation, possibly hanging)
I’m gonna OD on whatever I can get my hands on, and well the other choices […]
When you become so happy when you meet your favorite person in the world whom you love. On your special three month. Or when the next day you are still happy from that experiences you couldnt help but smile so much. People around you ignoring you but you dont care at all cause you kept thinking about your happy moment. People out there hating you… even though you did nothing wrong. But as the day goes on your happiness was just a memory of what happen in the past. That your emotional feeling you had just died completely with everything else. I guess… thats how […]
Why do the people who claim to care, leave us when we need them most?
This month has been surreal.
On the 31st of July an old friend of mine took her life.
It’s so strange because out of the two of us, I thought it’d be me.
I feel the need to share this with people who understand suicide and depression. I’ve changed all the names as this is pretty recent.
Sunday 31st July 4:00 pm
I’m watching TV with my mum, we are about to head over to my Nanna’s. We watched the end of the show and leave. I don’t remember exactly what I was thinking the moment before, but something caught my eye.
The railway police, were stopped by a crossing. My […]
Hello all, I think I am writing this more for myself than anything. I feel as if I can’t talk to anyone truthfully about my thoughts and feelings as if I am going to be judged, and judged negatively. Hard to start, what I can say right now is, that after finally seeking help I don’t contemplate suicide as much anymore.
I don’t remember when it all started. It’s not like I tripped over life and ended up in a steam pile of depression, it happened gradually. I do remember though a few times hinting and thinking about suicide, but blew it off as stupid thinking. […]
i wish i could just go to sleep and never wake up. i hate failing when trying to commit suicide. tried it with a belt just now but for some reason I wasn’t even suffocating, it just felt like a massive headache and i was breathing regularly. maybe when i get a driver’s license i can buy some sleeping pills or something, i don’t know. i don’t want tonight to end and i don’t want to face tomorrow. school’s such a shitty place.
It’s my birthday today and it’s very sad to see that I am celebrating it by performing self-flagellation. A punishment for myself who can’t do better.
Greetings Readers,
I’m a 27 year old gay male and have suffered from depression since I was a child. My father died in an accident when I was 7 and it sent me into a traumatic spiral from which I’ve never truly recovered. After his death, seemingly every four months on until I was 15, somebody else in my family died. Mostly it was the older generations (great grandmothers, great aunts/uncles), excepting my cousin who died at the age of 26 from a sudden case of the “flu” (drug addiction and alcoholism). These events all contributed to the never-ending battle with depression I face.
When I was […]
OK so here’s the deal. Â Last week I had planned everything, purchased everything and set up everything to check out this past Saturday. Â Obviously it didn’t happen. Â Why? Â Simple! Â Once I knew everything was in place that I just had to go to the closet and *poof*, I became calm, relaxed etc. Â In the middle of that peacefulness, an idea come to me.
Took about a day for me to fully embrace the idea. Â Made sure I wasn’t just teasing myself unrealistically. Â The major thing that will cure me? Â Get out of the dead end little fucking mill town and my dead end little fucking mill […]
I’ve got a helium tank with valve and tubing running to an airtight mask. Â I open the valve just a crack and see if I can close it before unconciousness…….so far so good…
Random rant. I’m inferior I feel. Worthless useless, pitiful. I feel that I don’t even deserve to live. I hate being human sometimes, worried about things I won’t mention here. I just want to enjoy life and I feel my friends and even family are preventing that from happening. I don’t care what there stupid thoughts of. Life is such a burden. If my gf reads this, I’m sorry but I am feeling suicidal now and no it’s not your fault.
🙁 can I just sleep forever, have nice awesome dreams. and be out of this nightmare. Theres only 3 good things I like about […]
I’m curious how many of you have benefited from this website. If you would like to include details, please do at your comfort.
1. Do you feel better after..
posting?
commenting on others?
receiving feedback on your post?
reading the stories of others?
2. How did their words reach you? By..
relating?
sympathizing?
being positive?
I offered a few possible answers. Feel free to create your own.
I lost you,
I lost you as a bestfriend.
Because of some boy you said you didn’t care about anymore..
I told you my explanitation
But ok
Fuck you,
‘friend’.
I’m thinking about killing myself. I could take a bottle full of phentermine to cause a heart attack. Or all of my sleeping pills and Xanax. I feel that I am nothing. Of no importance. I have no friends, no bf or husband. My son would be safer with his father. I fail at life. I couldn’t protect my son. Nothing is good right now. I have no family. No one likes me. I’m worthless. I’ve never accomplished anything. People say I’m attention crazed. Truth is — I would do anything to be loved. I show my body because I want to be wanted. To […]
So powerfull …
It fits into any scenario . Just close your eyes <3
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hKLpJtvzlEI