I am not afraid to die. I do think the only reason I’m still alive is because I do not want to hurt anyone else. Otherwise I would just give up. I wish I could go to sleep and not wake up. I am so tired of being unhappy. I’m tired of being in pain. It all seems hopeless and pointless and I don’t know what to do anymore.
August 2011
I dont want to boring all the people reading this, and im too lazy to tell you the history of my life but trust me its been very fucked up and maybe today i will commit suicide, and i would love to do it in front of the camera but obviously i cant uploaded tothe internet, so i need help i jusst need someone to add me to my msn, an record the livechat and the that person put it on the internet, please i need help to do this, i hope someone help me on any of this 2 mails you can find me :
I was supposed to be a winner but alas my life is lame. I don’t know who to blame, I used to be a courageous young girl, but I guess life happens and I got too afraid to try out new things after waiting a long time for my turn. I am watching America’s best Dance Crew right now and noticed that these dancers are so full of life, the blood in their veins pumping with life, that’s why even if I am not talented at dancing I would like to learn. They have got this attitude of no fear, they have this swagger, no […]
If anyone wants to ask me about the ******** method, please email me to this adress;
JonesHenry@hotmail.fi
I cant talk about it openly here, since the moderator wont allow me.
its so cold…being alone
I love philosophy but questioning the things that we base our lives on scares me whilst exciting me. I don’t know what to do anymore. I have no friends to hang out with, outside of school. I lost the few I had. I spend my days on the computer looking for things to put my mind to. I eagerly search for films and music that somehow relates to my endless negative feelings in order to find some connection with another person, even though I have never met them and they are oblivious of my existence. I saw my psychologist for the first time a week […]
I can’t seem to cry, I’ve taken notice, i don’t understand I really believe I lost the ability to and Ive los the ability to dwell on my past it might be ADHD or whatever but idk the choking has side effects it might be that. I’m jealous of the fact that I ain’t depressed I’m just actively suicidal and have bipolar depression. I am starting to like my dad again and am feeling very gullible at that. Not much else to say other thanthe fact that I hope my time is near and if you bring religion into this. I will become violent and […]
I just wat to grab a knife and stab myself repeatly in the chest. Grab a scraper and scrap ever dead flesh i call my skin. Go down into my basement and grab an extension cord go outside(its like dark here btw) and just go hang myself. I am through with life. I am through of feeling this sort of emotional pain. I would go cut right now if i had the oppritunity. But you know what, i will be selfish and take the cowardly way out. I will do some good for the world for once and end my life for good. If its […]
i’m running out of reasons for me. i feel like i make everyones life hell. my family, my boyfriend, and even my friends. i see things and hear things. i can’t stop emotionally eating and i constantly think about hurting myself. i had a problem with cutting and smoking p*t because it helped me feel better..my boyfriend says if i do it again he’ll leave me. but i feel like those things are little but they help me hold on. at night when everyone goes to sleep i fantasize about all these ways to kill myself. my mother wastes money on pills for me that […]
So yeah I sort of set a date I want to terminate my life on, have you ever set a date?? I am actually worried I might chicken out or something…
Hey, I just want to let somebody know my story so here it is! Also I may need someone else’s opinion.. When I was 13, I tried to hang myself and it almost worked, Â but I was using a belt and it must’ve snapped because I blacked out and woke up 10 minutes later. Anyway, I’m 16 now and I really want to get it right this time. So my question is… What do you suggest I do?
I’m so fucking done. Honestly, this decision is so rational and considered. Ijust can’t take anymore.
I always feel guilt, towards others… When I cut. I’m scared to commit suiced. I always think of how bad it would hurt if I lost someone that is important to me. My boyfriend is going through some shit right now and we got on the phone and talked for a bit. He said he hated his life and everything and everyone in it. I’m either nothing or everything… I still havent figured it out yet. He threatens to kill himself quite often… I always tell him “Brett dont. Suicide is permanent there would be no going back to a life that you CAN change […]
Have you ever feel so depress that you feel like you are dead? That you cant continue on anymore than you have now. That every minute your typing this your just wondering? Does anyone really care what i write how i feel and what i want. That feeling you are just going jump off the edge of never coming back but you end up waking up in a hospital with your family there seeing you in this condition or your friends finding out what you had done. Or be one of the lucky ones that had finally achieve what they wanted and that you just […]
Hi guys.
Been doing it pretty rough recently. Been suggesting from depression for last 8 years but only been diagnosed for 2. Before that I just dealt with life how I thought everyone did not realising that actually I was sick. It all started when I had to leave the forces and then my best friend was killed in action. For last 2 years I’ve been suffering with depression and anxiety and the fact I haven’t dealt with stuff before.
3 months ago my marriage broke down and in turn I’ve lost my house and am living with my parents. I’m off work sick as […]
so yeah i’ma off myself soon now
idk what to say, i’ve already told you all so many times. so i’m just gonna say bye.
goodbye.
I wanna write something here plz tell me buddys how to i do that?
i used to look around me and see people i loved. people that mattered to me.
people that made me the better version of myself.
people that i proudly called my friends.
now i look around me and all i see is people that make me miserable and cold.
people whose ‘friendship’ with me is based purely around mocking me.
these people arent my friends. they use me in any way they can, and when they dont need me, im shunned to the back.
they dont treat me the same as they do any of there other friends. it seems i dont deserve the respect.
but i do.
iv’e recently learned that […]
I’m wishing this day were over, but I’m hoping tomorrow never comes….