there are some things that I really really hate about myself. I masterbate on occasion, and I hate it. I frickin hate that I do it. It makes me want to kill myself afterwards if i didn’t think id be damned to hell. so instead i cut myself. which i do anyways, and don’t really even need an excuse for.
I am such a fucking worthless whore. im so stupid. I know that it makes me worse i dont know why i even do it.
and please don’t tell me not to worry about it, because i truly believe it’s wrong according to my religion. That means im wrong. I am a failure. I am flawed.
I hate myself.
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Isn’t self destructive behavior also against your religion. I’m personally an ignostic and have no belief in religion of any kind. However that has only been the case for several months. There’s no point in believing in god if your not going to believe in forgiveness. So while you consider it a sin god if he exists will forgive you for it. You’re not the 1st or last person to ever have that problem and I’m sure god would rather you touch your self then cut yourself or worse. Every on earth is flawed and if masturbation is the worse thing you do you’re still a very good person.
It’s much worse to do that to yourself. It’s the worse sin to destruct yout body!
Masterbating is much much better, so between the two…
I used to feel guilty too when i was young. Now i don’t care and i’m much happier. Never hate yourself, you are special.
Don’t let any of that bother you. Most people practice selective religion and just follow the rules they want to. You could do that. A lot of people masturbate, me included, and there is nothing wrong with it. It can be a beautiful personal thing and your belief in some religion doesn’t have to make you feel like a whore because you choose to pleasure yourself. Everyone is flawed in some way. And I don’t believe that you’ll spend eternity suffering and burning because you touch yourself every now and again. You don’t have to and should not feel like a whore.