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My mother makes me want to die.

September 30th, 2011by Tigger1

my mom got pregnant at age 16 with me. When i was a baby about a year old maybe a little under my father held a knife to my mothers neck while i was on a changing table and made her wait and watch to see if i would fall on the tile below me and crack my head open. my mom screamed so loud though that my uncle came to the rescue (he lived next door). shortly my mom and my dad broke up. my dad has never been apart of my life. i would see him probably twice a year and each time …

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Speech project…

September 30th, 2011by Mahnoodle_TFB

Yesterday i was assigned to do a project in speech and debate. It was free topic, so i decided i would do it on teen Suicide. I can really use some statistics that most people don’t usually know. And wish me luck. I’ve  always been trying to prove my depression to the class. Im tierd of putting a fake smile on everyday…. Wish me luck :/

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Tonight…

September 30th, 2011by Kitty

There Is No Stopping Me.

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Binge

September 30th, 2011by SuicideKillMe

Binge…
Oh how you conrupt me.
Oh how you always do this to me.
Why must you let me be
the way i am.
You really are…
destorying more of my life
thank you
just thank you.

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What The Fuck..

September 30th, 2011by Silent Screamer

My mom is taking my fucking money.

I am saving it for a fucking reason!!!

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New

September 30th, 2011by TheNewKid

I start a new school on Monday and I’m a couple of weeks late. I’m going to Year 10 (I’m in England) and I’m really nervous. I keep crying, I probably have the lowest self-esteem in the world and I have a scary feeling that it’s leading to a disorder. I look in the mirror and cry every single day. I can’t look people in the eye except the people I live with.. (for example) If I go shopping I tend to look on the floor, rather than in front of me, I tend to avoid asking for help or going to crowded isles, I’d …

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September 30th, 2011by CheshireTheCat

I sloped up again. Thad maybe….five times this week…but, it didn’t bleed out. It’s deep but no blood. The noe thing that’s always made me feel alive was cutting…..now I’m not sure what to think….

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ranting and raving.. by TPHG =r

September 30th, 2011by tphg

I’ve been sick all day, the usual digestive issues(I get bad IBS symptoms). Even focusing on getting better depresses me because I know that deep down, I don’t want to get better. That kind of thinking just makes me feel worse and worse until I spiral out of control and do something foolish like pray to god for mercy or something.

The last few times I’ve come here to vent or just read comments, I’ve felt my sadness slwly start to lift. I don’t think I’m hopeless; I can be happy. I just feel so opposite to everyone around me. No one seems to care about anything …

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Addictions

September 30th, 2011by SarahSue

have you ever gotten that feeling where you need to turn your mental pain into physical pain. so you slash away your skin. you hide it from people because you want to be normal for once inyour life but no matter how hard you try, you always end up being two different people. Theirs the person you are in a crowd of people, and theirs the person you are when ur experiancing the bite of the blade. Cutting is no longer because it helps you deal with your mental illness…its because its an outles, its how you cope. It’s what makes you able to actually …

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tired

September 30th, 2011by confused

I keep running away from myself. I don’t want to think, because if I start thinking, I start going over how fucked up I feel despite leading such a great life.

I don’t know why I’m close to snapping. I never thought I was free from these thoughts. I keep holding on tightly to my feelings, because if I let go, I’m going to do something I’m not sure I’d regret. But I thought I’d get better if I stay away. But I haven’t. And it’s just festering all these months.

Thing is, I don’t want anybody to help me, so nobody ever ever knows. The hardest …

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Getting Old.

September 30th, 2011by jennifermh65

Today is my birthday and I feel 66 years old. Im only 24 now. I dont want to gain another year but I dont know if Ill have a chance to do it. Oh well.

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Fuckin’ lovely.

September 30th, 2011by Spencer

According to the site I was just on, I am Manic, Depressed, bipolar and borderline, all of which are sever.  But hey, I’m only showing symptoms of early schizophrenia. “Woo”

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0.5 seconds

September 30th, 2011by Spencer

Everything was fine, I was having the time of my life, and then I snapped. All that you said was you’d be by for your stuff this weekend, and I lost it. Everything  crashed on top of me. I couldn’t hold out any longer.

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I’m sick and I can’t seem to get any help

September 30th, 2011by melrosebelleacre

I’m sick.  I have tried for 6 years after getting my diagnosis(es) of auto immune disease which causes crippling pain, to deal with this, to try to be as normal as possible, to engage in socializing as much as I can, but my boyfriend told me tonight that I should not tell people that I am sick.  People ask, and that’s why I tell.  They see me struggling to get around, to deal with pain, and they inquire as to what is wrong.  When I try to be accepting of my fate, and rent a scooter at a theme park, he admits that he is …

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Suicide with an escape clause

September 30th, 2011by polk

Suicide With An Escape Clause

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My argument for Suicide

September 29th, 2011by sunbird

So,I could blather on here about my depression (2+ yrs) my empty,pathethic,useless life,and listen to people patronizing me and feeding me lines like “take a walk and be at one with nature” or “reach out and talk to someone” etc etc etc. Im not here to get into that bull. People are reading this because they are depressed and absorbed in theor own stories, or other people want to feel pious and try to “save a life. So lets just skip over that crap and let me say what I want to say.

 

Here is my rationale about suicide,in general. Some may agree,some not,but its based …

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my sickness

September 29th, 2011by blueboy

I will sew your eyes shut so you cant see my pain.

I will cover your ears so you cant hear my screams.

I will bind your hands so you cant touch my heart.

I will push you away so i wont steal your warmth.

I will open your eyes so you can see it’s to late.

I will uncover your ears so i can tell you im sorry.

I will unbind your hands so you can check for a pulse.

I will hold you tight as i die and hope you can finally be happy.

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Scared.

September 29th, 2011by bernard34

Ya I understand shes scared of me cuz shes afraid im do somethin to myself bcuz she sayz itz over but she dnt really mean itt. I cant change the past of what I did before. The 1st time idid it i waz serious but not bcuz of her bcuz of my best guy friend :/.. i waz so hurt once i found out wat he said. Alot can change in a year I never thought iwuld evr evr have thoughtz bout hurtin myself but ido bcuz ido feel lik mayb she iz forced to be wit me :( I love her and will alwayz …

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Random things going through my head..

September 29th, 2011by SnowyBeawr

Once again I just randomly feel like posting.

I’m thinking about how friends come to me with their problems a lot. I always feel like I fail to help them. Even my friend’s cousin who’s in her 20s came to me. I really don’t know how to help her, she’s in some deep shit. She didn’t do so well in college, shes in debt, no job and has troubles with her love life. She once ended up in the hospital for a suicide attempt and just stopped going to therapy. Honestly, how am I supposed to help her? Whenever she comes to me, I feel like an …

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I cant escape

September 29th, 2011by Knightofdoom

This pain is inevitable.
Im afraid it will never go away, it’s getting worse everyday. Im really conflicted to ignore the pain and work really hard to get my life on track or just to go through with a painful death. Either way pain is endorsed
The drugs and booze used to take the pain and horrible feeling away mommentarly, which help me compose myself sadness in public. I got out with my friends i dont want fo bring anyone down or annoy anyone with my empty sadness. Well blaze :) ill be Numb for a few minutes but …

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