my mom got pregnant at age 16 with me. When i was a baby about a year old maybe a little under my father held a knife to my mothers neck while i was on a changing table and made her wait and watch to see if i would fall on the tile below me [...]

Yesterday i was assigned to do a project in speech and debate. It was free topic, so i decided i would do it on teen Suicide. I can really use some statistics that most people don’t usually know. And wish me luck. I’ve  always been trying to prove my depression to the class. Im tierd [...]

On a cold winter morning, in the time before the light In flames of death’s eternal reign we ride towards the fight When the darkness has fallen down, and the times are tough all right The sound of evil laughter falls around the world tonight Fighting hard, fighting on for the steel, through the wastelands [...]

Sunny Day Sweepin’ the clouds away On my way to where the air is sweet Can you tell me how to get, How to get to Sesame Street Come and play Everything’s A-OK Friendly neighbors there That’s where we meet Can you tell me how to get How to get to Sesame Street It’s a [...]

There Is No Stopping Me.

Binge… Oh how you conrupt me. Oh how you always do this to me. Why must you let me be the way i am. You really are… destorying more of my life thank you just thank you.

My mom is taking my fucking money. I am saving it for a fucking reason!!!

I start a new school on Monday and I’m a couple of weeks late. I’m going to Year 10 (I’m in England) and I’m really nervous. I keep crying, I probably have the lowest self-esteem in the world and I have a scary feeling that it’s leading to a disorder. I look in the mirror [...]

Okay, so guys, imagine that suicide was an industry, a businesss, a line of work. There would be companies catering to every deathwish, every fetish, every desire. And imagine that you had boundless options for ending your life. Cool options. You could choose death by skydiving with underwear models and a BoomBlaster. And no parachute. Or get extremely [...]

I sloped up again. Thad maybe….five times this week…but, it didn’t bleed out. It’s deep but no blood. The noe thing that’s always made me feel alive was cutting…..now I’m not sure what to think….