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Biographies

November 30th, 2011by cj

Today, I was talking to one of my brothers (a great friend). We shared some time after lunch talking about our faith, and praying to God.

One of the stories I shared is one that is close to my heart. A little duck was in a pond. He was surrounded by many other ducks swimming so peacefully around him. He was struggling and seeing how hard it is to stay afloat. It is not so easy to paddle to stay a float, so he decided to let go. He started drowning, and while he was looking underwater, he noticed that everyone else also was struggling to …

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Another of my friends died today

November 30th, 2011by Stacey Corbin

One of my closest friends killed themselves today. Thats 2 in only three weeks!!! what the fuck. i hate this so much. who else is next?? fuck my life.. im so depressed.

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Accident or not?

November 30th, 2011by littloo1

Today i was in my kitchen, cutting meat with a big knife. Before i knew what i was doing, i had slit my wrist slightly. Before realization hit, i just stood and watched the blood begin to fall from my arm down to the counter. thats when i had a thought, if i could do that and handle the pain why not do what i always wanted? Even when my reason for living would be devastated, i would be selfish and do it just because. Could i do what my best friend had done to me, to him? She did it because she couldn’t handle …

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The End-My Story

November 30th, 2011by Chris-SR

This is my story and the only time I will tell it so please listen.  I just wanted people to know that for some like me, it does not get better and that the pain you are feeling is not always temporary and sometimes things can get even worse.

I hanged myself Jan 3, 2010 at 3:33 am, at the exact time I was born.  I was being forced out of my job, work cut my pay in half, I had serious debt and my unemployed and chronically depressed girlfriend was living with me in a little apartment in Chicago.  I came to my limit and I had enough, so I hanged …

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November 30th, 2011by SuicideKillMe

Sleep is all i really do, except be on my laptop. Soon enough, that will be taken away. My mom yell at me for sleep. If she haven’t notice. Thats all i got to do. And she wouldn’t even let me explain either. Lets face it. I can’t live in this household anymore. I really don’t know what to do anymore. Why does my life have to be so boring. So depressing. So… miserble.

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quality of life sucks

November 30th, 2011by missme

I got hurt 11yrs ago and I have no life. friends and hubby wants me to leave. I have not got anywhere to go, except HELL. I dont feel love or needed. what else is there.

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Time is only wearing me down

November 30th, 2011by shadow-cat

I’m not suicidal, not yet any way. I’ve thought about it before, when I was younger in school. It was normally after i was bullied by my friends, if you could call them that. Then I went to college and left them all behind and I realized i didn’t have to be friends with people i didn’t like. I didn’t have to be friends with people that definitely didn’t like me. It was really nice for a while and I felt different, stronger. I had prospects, University, a good job.
I lost weight, not a lot but enough for people to notice. For guys to notice. …

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NEVER Give Up

November 30th, 2011by rodriguez.elena73@yahoo.com

Hey everyone how are you truly feeling? Well i hope you all are doing well, and just to let you know I’m doing good myself.

I just want to say a few things, so please listen… and it would be nice if you leave a comment. Anyway people please, don’t

take your life away, I promise it’s not worth it. Your problems don’t really last forever it’s your choice if you want them to last forever,

but if you kill yourself  that will last forever.

Also if you kill yourself you are not going to go to Heaven (at least that is what i think), and i promise you …

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I have nothing left

November 30th, 2011by whatisleftforme

Over the past year i’ve been experiencing a variety of medical problems. My main concern is a state of vertigo i am always in. Every waking moment of my day is spent feeling dizzy and wanting to throw up, this is not a mental thing I am sure as hell feeling it in the depths of my stomach. All my symptoms point to the little known Menieres disease, of which there is no cure and is degenerative. It affects balance and hearing. I’m 19, and i’ve read alot about this disease, what seems to be of common occurence is that it generally gets worse as …

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Moving up the time.

November 30th, 2011by U.N. Owen

Sitting here at work bored from the tedium.  Do not really want to be here.  And I know I have hit rock bottom because I am posting from work.  All they can do is fire me and although I may not have the funds to go in the method I choose, it will help me to leave earlier.

Have already spoken on certain things on here.  But I refuse to take treatement for any ailments.  If they cannot cure it then I prefer to let the disease take me out.  And death seems to be the cure for life.  Because all these years I have just been …

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The hole after life deal.

November 30th, 2011by Dr dolittle

I came from nothing. Did not exist once. So if i came from nothing And i go back to being nothing. Can it happen again.? Cause it’s all ready happend once. I never gave the religion thing much thought. I new we all end up dead. But never really paid much attention to it.
I have decided to kill my self.. Cause i’m not going to live like this. So you start thinging about it.
I don’t get the hole after life deal. Cause think about it. I’m my body and my body give me my personality.
From keeping fit. ( i keep fit cause my body like’s to be active …

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Why Is My Life So Fucked Up?

November 30th, 2011by bah

All I wanted was to be normal, to have a happy and peaceful life, to love and be loved.  That’s all I ask for.  Apparently that’s just too much.

After 31 years, my life hasn’t gotten any better–in fact, it’s gotten multitudes worse.  I’m even more messed up, completely broken on the inside and unable to cope with life.

Is life a cruel joke?  It probably is.

Is life unfair?  Oh it most certainly is.  And I definitely got the short end of the stick.

Will I ever feel fine?  Will I ever be able be at ease and enjoy life?   At this moment, I feel hopeless, in despair.  …

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Suicide – fail

November 30th, 2011by MrSebastior

So this time i didn’t chicken out like all the other times, why didn’t i go through with it then?

well, for some reason i couldn’t fucking get it right and then my mother called me, then dad and granny, so i gave it one last chance, didn’t work, so i went back home, but i was so fucking high on sleeping pills i can’t remember what happened, i just remember i couldn’t walk straight.

Man, time goes by so fucking fast when you’re on sleeping pills, i started taking them at 12pm, and i was gonna be at the location at 1-1:30pm, but i got there …

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Life Is A Sick Joke

November 30th, 2011by alectrevelyan

I have no idea what to do.  I’ve been thinking about my life a lot lately and how I’ve ended up where I am today, and I still can’t quite put my finger on it.  I was raised by my grandparents staring when I was just six months old.  I saw them as mom and dad and I called them mom and dad.  They provided me with everything I wanted: a safe, clean home, video games, great meals, vacations every March break, the list goes on.  My grandmother passed away in 2003 from lung cancer when I was 17.  After the funeral, my grandfather accused …

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what kind of person have i become?

November 30th, 2011by Not worth saving

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connections

November 30th, 2011by tphg

family – intolerable; I’m changing my name and starting a new family line

friends – so close yet so far; I can be the best friend you ever had but I don’t see the point anymore as I don’t get anything out of camaraderie(besides cheap laughs). I know I’ll never be happy like my friends are and it puts a strain on relations. Listening to them complain about relationships and other aspects of human life that I have no access to leaves me feeling dead and angry inside.

co-workers – the only people I wear a mask around; I changed jobs, started the new one this week …

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hopeless.

November 30th, 2011by evildandelions

The chances I have a mental breakdown, or at least say something regretable, in my class tomorrow (I call it Bullshit 101) is way too high.

There is only so much bullshit and stupidity I can deal with.  I don’t have a very high tolerance normally, but this is ridiculous.  I feel like I might explode.  I am so tired of hearing people whine about things they know nothing about, or assume that my opinion or the source of my facts is wrong simply because it doesn’t coincide with theirs.  “Oh, that’s not what I heard.”

I’m actually crying.  A rare occurrence for me.

I have an incredible …

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This fog is thick as peanut butter

November 30th, 2011by jjohnsonislost

We are the misfit toys, and this site is our Island of Misfit Toys. Maybe we can find the right tools here. Maybe we can find the right connections, or maybe we are kidding ourselves. I was too scared to go to work sober today. I am too scared to do anything sober really. I have to escape. The reality of it all is just a little more than I can bare. I hate feeling that way… helpless. How did I let this happen? I was always so careful.

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when the time is right. i wont fail this time

November 30th, 2011by Not worth saving

I pray and dream of only one thing and that is to fall.
I want to fall from that edge so high.
I want to feel that moment of peace that passes through me as im in the air.
I want to feel that single moment of pain as my body hits the ground.
I want to die..
If i survive this then i will know that God really does hate me..

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Who kills Butterflies..

November 30th, 2011by Madelene

ive given up on myself.

i am lost for words – my butterflies are gone.

I killed them.

if i can only ever fail myself – ill only ever fail everyone around me.

i cant do anything right.

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