Sleep is all i really do, except be on my laptop. Soon enough, that will be taken away. My mom yell at me for sleep. If she haven’t notice. Thats all i got to do. And she wouldn’t even let me explain either. Lets face it. I can’t live in this household anymore. I really don’t know what to do anymore. Why does my life have to be so boring. So depressing. So… miserble.
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Is it ’cause you can’t face anything else than sleep?
no its cause i have nothing to do but sleep. No hobbies no jobs. I only have school which i hate going to. And i don’t go outside and in the past two days breathing has become more of a struggle.
Is there anything else you want to do?
Can you move out?
Being a person with no purpose and hating my job, I feel where you are coming from.
Suicide, why do you wish to die? I think is better if you use this site to talk about the reasons for your wish.
@U.N Owen: Oh that would be wonderful to get away from everyone in my household but i find that very impossible as you can see im still in high school and i have no money to get away from things.
@Cj: Why i wish to die? I’m sick of life. I’m sick of the depression. I hate going to school where bullying tends to happen. I hate being at home cause i’m mostly yell at or Judge what i do or wear. I consently weight myself like every single day. Been betray and stab in the back by others. If i have to live life knowing someone i know had fuck up or have left me without any warning signs. Then what? Having to hate myself and my weight? Basically…. what else can i do. Even i scream for help at times.
I try to use this site, but i guess its not working.
Become a high end jewel thief, now thats not boring
This may sound like tough love…your health is about you, not your mom so why r u taking this lying down (no punn intended). My dad got mad at me once…kind of the same thing…I could barely move or think. If you need to get angry, tell your mom….I’m f’n exhausted. There’s being lazy and there’s legitimate health/well being issues. Stick to your guns a be true to how you feel….only allow your feelings to matter, given your circumstance. Nothing is more important than that you feel good. Good luck.!
@Caucajun Really dont like jewels lolz
@softsoul: Why not? What else could i possibly do. Everything i do is either wrong or i just put myself down. I always have to worst health. Since the past two days i did nothing but hypervalite. This morning i took a deep breath cause i couldn’t breath well and i had a horrible pain in my chest. My health and my life is my struggle.
Softsoul did give you a great suggestion.
Did not know you were in high school.
And lack of resources does present many limitations.
I hope your mother takes what you say to heart and helps you.
No young person should be going through what you are.
I understand what your going through. Don’t give up, taking your life isn’t worth it. Get help before it’s to late, that was the best desision I’ve ever made. 🙂
That much sleep is common with depression. I also know a man who has BPD, he’s the same way, needs lots of sleep. It’s not a decision they make, it’s part of their illness.